And am BACK (to BANG?!...)

Well.... Finally i have decided to pen down some of the things thats been running in my head since this JANUARY!

IT LIFE!
Well... The whole experience since joining Wipro had been remarkable & unforgettable. One of the fastest episode in my life would be this career START! Well to be honest in the first week after me joining the IT - i really did not find the reason why IT got all the attention & HYPE in our society! Am not going deep into that now. This was the first time EVER in my life for me to stay away from MOM & DAD so long. I couldn't survive a week without seeing them both, I was such a parent-addict!
And First time ever in life i stayed in a hostel. I remember few of my best friends tell me..."If you haven't been in a hostel. You have missed something major in your life." Well.... I din't miss that :) I got the opportunity to live in a Hostel (and am still enjoying that experience) & for many reason there is no blame on these friends who told me this. It wasn't bad after all... First few days was TERRIBLE for me. I couldn't bring myself to even answer my parent's call. That’s how much I miss them...

It started in Hyderabad - First level of training was successfully completed. Then when i was dreaming to head back to chennai they said we have our second level of training in Bangalore for few weeks. Then came too much confusion & now am in bangalore. I have moved to my second account now. I Miss the lovely people i had made friends with in my older account. But i do get to see them once in a while, or at least through mails we try to keep in touch. Well the second account was not a great start to me - one reason because I wanted to come back to Chennai if at all i was released from the older account. But now I have started to like this account very much & I actually am starting to enjoy the hectic days here. I always try to see that there is some reason for everything that is happening in my life, even when the worst things happen- i see that there is Something to learn from...some valuable lesson that demands you to be patient & smart to learn what is in wait. And i try to see it as a learning experience, and am still seeing it that way. I am a person who loves sleeping and I love to sleep till someone kicks me off the bed - can u believe i wake up @ 5 & start my work at office by 6. I am now working in the early morning shift & I do not get to leave by the 9:30 hours for the day, am not forced to stay back but you won’t be able to leave with too much of work left. (Something is seriously wrong with me! :P ) Am trying to give my best & it is to my surprise that when I enter the office – I forget all the irritation I have because of staying away from parents & I start working. That’s some magic I still do not understand. And my weekends are the only time left for ME… which goes in traveling to Chennai & then getting back to Bangalore, and the very little time left to have fun with mom n dad. I enjoy that … so I do not mind the tiresome travel.

In this new project, I have made good friends. After my Primary school days I could find the right set of girls to hang out with. Of course my college buddies are also special, but something is special now with these friends. And I was able to quickly bond with these buddies. Sometimes when the work is really irritating or the place is all heated up- it’s those dumb jokes we crack that keeps us going. So this is how my life is now…
I had been so out of touch with blog since my last post which I wrote before the completion of the training & now I know this is such a DUMB post.. but I do need a post to restart the journey ! I could not visit any of my friends blogs since then , for there was no time left for anything but to read during the training. I am hoping to be regular to blogs atleast from now…Lets see how I do it… J

And I wrote this post on the Sunday evening… yeah few more hours left for me to catch my train…
SOBS **

Ps: For those of you who struggle to wakeup in the morning…Try this Song ring as your alarm. You won’t dare to switch it off & go to sleep again: P
I have adopted this adorable one to help me wake up!

Do not Neglect the mirror!

This is just the preview..#8 page long story would b published later.

A mirror speaks!

I’m here on one of my boring days. Why? Because no one here looks at me since little ILAYA left to her boarding school. And it seems like they may not have me here anymore. So am once again out of a home to go to a new place. While am resting here to be carried away, I am reminded about the last time I was in a shop where there were a number of mirror friends.We speak very often about our experiences in different places.Here is something that usually happens between us & you.

- People, they generally come towards us & want to see the best. Sometimes they do get annoyed & walk away angrily- as if we had done a blunder by not reflecting the way they wanted to look. It is those times I wish I knew magic. But not to forget - SOME OF THEM WOULD GIVE US FLYING KISS TOO at times-Rarely ;)

- Babies keep coming to us; sometimes keep looking at us for hours. Sometimes they keep smiling & chuckles when they see us reflect their beautiful smile. Ahh… I can spend a whole life reflecting their beautiful emotions.

- Pet cats & dogs playing around unless they are tired or carried away.Hehe.. I just love to see the way they keep scratching us.

- Gorgeous girls ;) standing for hours & the way they apply the so called make-up over an over again to only spoil their natural beauty. SIGH* I WISH I COULD TELL AT LEAST ONE OF THEM- Come on stop now! You look just great. Don’t apply that thing anymore.

- Handsome boys trimming their mustaches. LOL! Some amateurs just don’t understand the word “Symmetry”. Glad I don’t have a mustache.<>

- Expecting mothers – First timers especially, trying in fact struggling to fit in their old clothes. Hahaa… You should see their emotions, so very rare & unique! Even they themselves will not be able to see that again.

I Shall tell you later about the stories my friends have told me. But I do have few points to tell you from my experiences & my friend’s.Well, don't get offended by anything said here , won't you understand & cope when your friend says something that you do not like.

#I have seen many people complain about the looks. Well, you humans are all beautiful in your own ways. Each of you has a face which is your unique to be identified (unless you have a twin). There is nothing for you to complain about. There was no reference given to create you. Each one of you are unique. And there is no one pretty and no one awful with looks. Every person is a new doll we see.

#Each of you are unique & beautiful to us. Unlike us! What shape can I tell I have, what colour would I say Iam. Does Messy have long hair, or Silent have a big mouth? Does Ms.Antique have a sharp nose? Can I answer that, can u? No! We do not have an identity like you. You have been lucky to be what you are. And I feel the same way too! We are what you are. A happy person in front of us makes us happy too. We smile. We reflect your smile. Every complaining look makes us do the same. When you look at the mirror do not expect – just observe & do not fail to see what you see.

#Looking at the mirror is good, for many reasons. You know how you look & how you must cope to be your best. Imagine a person who never looks at the mirror, do you think he will have any idea about when to trim his mush or when to shave? He would grow barbaric, won’t he?

Fat people would realize how rapidly they are putting on weight, they may control their diet accordingly if they note the change. I have heard a wise woman say “Your body is your first doctor, it never fails to tell you what is happening inside.It never fails to warn you. Only that we fail to pick up its signal sometimes”

# We help you groom yourself. Sometimes the greatest way to practice your speech or presentation is by standing in front of the mirror & practicing your speech. There is no one better than yourself to note what the mistakes are & accordingly you can make the changes. May it be the way you stand or the body language, we are there to help you help yourself.

#Dressing!! For heaven’s sake, please wear clothes that look good on YOU. Never see someone else look very pretty in some of the dress & try them out blindly. Trust me! An elephant looking huge may be a stunning sight, but a lion would look majestic only in its own size. Can you imagine a bunny in the size of a hippopotamus? You would run screaming, won’t you?

Then why scare us & the rest?

I wish I could personally call you or at least scream & cry when you wear a silly dress that is NOT made for you. But we cannot, we are only designed to reflect & we do not try that may be nice for a human but not for us. Whenever you wear a dress (definitely when it’s the first time), take ample time to check if the dress covers you properly & doesn’t look awkward or funny by looking at your reflection from all sides. If you haven’t got a bigger mirror, do ask people in your house. For I have seen the way some people look good when observed from the front side but not so from another angle. And if you are asked about the dress, do not try to be modest & lie that it looks good when it doesn’t. It is better to let your loved one know that “It looks pathetic” than to see them cry for someone had said something about it at work or outside home.

# And what not….. Spare a smile when your day starts. Do smile at us , for there is always the most beautiful face waiting to smile back at you. Never complain about your face – it looks great for it is unique.

With that note I shall now get back to the waiting… I never know whom I would meet. I may land up in your home next to tell the people what you have taught me, through my next story!

Come on! Smile – I would like to do that when I leave you. That’s Nice!

How was my smile? ;)

Lastly “Never neglect the mirror!”

I WISH ... ...

You may have stopped here while you were doing your work, or while u just replied to the most awaited mail, or while you were being told by your boss to do JUST THE WORK, or while in the meeting you just heard that the dead line is too near or while you were pissed off with the day or while you were cursing yourself for you failed to do something you had promised or while you were simply searching for a space in the internet that could eat up your time and quench the thirst of your soul…..Well here I take you for a little jolly good ride. You sit back and enjoy the ride while I drive you through………But please wear this Creative seat belt that do not let you not be creative. Ready to go??

Ok now! I want you to forget all that happened today , yesterday or this week that had really been bugging you. Forget everything and imagine you in your most comfortable place for the little baby is going to fall asleep LITERALLY. Are you asleep? Yes? Ok dear now….You are sleeping with a wonderfull smile on your face.And Zzzzz….you slept really well like a just born baby. Now you get up to see that amma is here standing next to you and waiting for you to rise. Ah….You get up to see you are in the most dreamt room of yours which is totally in your way with your favourite wall poster, wonderful sunlight falling on your face and you blossom to say GOOD MORNING Ma!And KISS amma…ETHANA NAAL ACHU/ ESHTU DHIVASA AAYITHU!! / ETHRA DHIVASA KAZHINJU!! / KITHNI DHIN PHAR!!…/ SORRY IF I am WRONG :D

And amma(Mom) gives you the most wonderfull tea/Cofee/Milk/whatever.. and Psr..WOW! Its been so many days since you tasted such a wonderful drink. Then you get out of your bed and come to the window with your drink ….Look out! What a beautiful sight! A lake and so many Swans …..Right adjacent to it is this really huge tree with the your favourite swing…You go down to the swing to see lots of Butterflies trying to have their morning drink served by your garden flowers….Yellow, Pink, Orange were their colours. You sit in the swing and start swinging….The gentle morning breeze gently brushes you and you feel the freshness in its wonderfull aroma.Eventually amma turn on your favourite music and you swing faster than ever and you feel the breeze being more gentle. Then at some farther distance you see some very familiar face..The face you had been longing to see for a very long time.And yes its that very special person ….To hear her/him {WHATEVER :D } call out your name you jump out of the swing and run to get the most wonderful hug you had ever given someone.

Then amma calls you both for a wonderfull breakfast. You both go inside and have your breakfast chatting. You both go out for the walk that you had not had for a long time. You hold hands like how you used to those days ( Kindergarden days/Childhood days/ Schooldays /College days). You both chat about everything you wanted to talk about. Then to find that bits just the age that has changed and your dear one is still the same 101% You both spend a whole day together and around the evening your friend leaves you and you depart. Then you go for a small walk and you happen to see the very wonderful bunch of kids singing and having a fun time. This very young lady asks you for a little help…To look after the children for few minutes so that she could make a call. And while you are hesitating, the sweet little kid from there come up to you and pulls you there for their company. You go play with them and have real fun and cherish every moment with those LITTLE ANGELS. And then you leave them with the lady and take leave…

And start walking…It is almost the night. And you hear this very sweet voice singing – melancholy . It starts to drizzle and enjoy the rain and walk back home along the lake side, enjoying the ripples in the lake and the very gentle sound of the rain and the smell of wet earth. And there at the door you see Mom , Dad and your loving sibling sitting and waiting for the coffee together…You run there to drink it hot while you are wet and amma is drying your hair , siblings teasing you……….

What a DAY!! I wish I have a day like that , where you see ,smell ,eat ,meet , talk, chat, walk, play the nicest ones. And Live the PERFECT DAY of your life!!! We all wish for a day like that! I wish!….. I came up with this idea the day I had thought so much about bad people I have met in life, bad things that happened, and about FAKERS and totally spoiled my mood - I really was so damn mood out! And whoosh! It was like I had fresh cream!!! Hope you too did…..Enjoy the feast! I wish you, me, we all get a day like that before we leave!!! A day in your life that is just for you and your loved ones. I wish…….

PS: Picture on top- was taken by me MARUTHAM ,while i was enjoying this Vision!!
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I dedicate this post to All those who are staying away from family and especially for those who are {Single} Studying, working, Studying and Working.

The recent few days I happen to meet a number of friends who have been staying away from family.To stay in a new place with totally new strange people and share room with them and live Sharing and caring. Adjust to the totally annoying food system, sleeping routine, new teachers/Boss/ co-workers. Especially those who do a part time Job and do their studies..It really is a tough time for them. And those who do not like the new place and are very irritated with the Culture there. And most of all the Boys easily get adjusted, they are very understanding and adopt quickly and infact they are amiable and quicker in realizing the FACT than girls/us! Some Girls – may be a little not so co-operative. They generally expect things/people to be the way they want it to be –some say it’s the best for them. Some are my class friends, I had been with them for the times they really missed Mom or Dad.

And I could not compensate, but just let them know am there no matter what. I remember my very egoistic friend from the north, She would never expose that she is Hurt or even Sad in the early days of college. I remember the occasion when she had lost her Lab shoe and was crying….We are just a handful of girls in our class and we were all just friends. Not too close. We tried to console her, but our sweety started yelling at all of us “ Its lost ..ok! And I donno where I lost it! It was just here when we all left to the canteen….What do I do? Where do I look for?” Unlike for us, her Dad got her the most expensive Leather shoes for he knew she will be feeling lonely and has to stay away from them. It was just a Shoe but some one got it for her with lot of love and she wouldn’t feel too good to lose it the same week. But then we told her it was ok…We could get some shoe for the lab – A cheap one and did get her one for 150Rs. It was some strange shop at T.Nagar we found for her and she wasn’t standing outside the Workshop(Thats the Punishment if u dont wear The shoes and come ) the next week. Her yelling really annoyed all of us! It is obvious isn’t it? When we are trying to help her out she starts yelling…Then who would be there around?? And It was that day I saw her eyes, Totally lost- helpless, insecure feeling and lot of frustration…It was then I decided to move close to this lady.And now we are great friends and she shares all her feeling with me and another girl. We 3 have a very good chemistry. When ever I see her feel homesick I just won’t know how I could handle something like that…I just cant bear Imagining.We had always been very cautious not to let her think too much about home. That’s the best we 2 could do.And the problem with our lady is She is very Arrogant (Sorry dear!), Non co-operative, adamant, Sometime very Rude too.

There was one occasion when she got so furious for one of the staff making a comment about her Notes…And it was that day we had to tell her…” Not every one is family or even understanding. You have moved away from home to a new place where people are different and culture too. What is so cool in the North may not be really acceptable in the south. And there is no one to complain. If things do not happen the way you want them to be then just let things go in its way and just watch. Because sometimes when things go out of hand it is better to observe where it really is taking us. And later to find that this way was also not that bad it would be a new experience.” And now she is more matured and a very little bit adjustable and is growing polite too. She is very different now. And we ourselves cannot believe this is that person who yelled at us for HER losing HER shoes.

And in the recent days there seem to be a lot of Girls talk between the three of us. May be not exactly..am just a listener and once in a while I tease and pull my friends back to Reality..Donno what has got into these girls suddenly .........so much of Girls talk…SO MUCH! And at times I really had to search for my Friends inside them , they totally get lost and I see just two teenage girls going crazy over JUNKS. In the recent day they find it fun provoking me by teasing me with every guy who comes up and talk to me. Mostly it would be my classmates who are not very friendly to the other girls. All these are tolerable, but when there is any guy standing outside in the corridor just looking inside the class or some at us and when ever they ask…”Marudhu, look there! Interested?? “ And Er… What are they asking- ” Not my Type dear! Now shut up and back to the Bio-medical instruments!! This patient almost died in your note…Look u have locked him in the Chamber and blew up his lung!!” And it’s this period they have the utmost fun. The bio-medical hour. This teacher is very friendly with me and for anything she would ask my note. And every time she comes down to my note my heart beat goes rapid fast for only I know what funny things these 2 had done in my note during the lecture. Will soon scan some of my class notes where my 2 Naughty friends have practiced their Cartoon art in some of the Specimens under study!! FUNNY DOGS!! (Er.....Am picking up this slang after watching KHNH-Stop it marudhu! Stop !)

We have got a beautifull lawn in our campus and at times we go to the park in the central college. And there we have an entirely different FUN time, which I would share with you all real soon. Now am in the study hols for the Semester exams, and I have already started missing my 2 funny dogs and other friends, Batch mates, class room funs, Canteen chats, Long walks we have had….. :( MISS'em. Just an year left
#Ok...Getting back to the dedication part,
So I very well know the hardships in staying away from home, family, Not that I have undergone all that but that I literally am stuck with my family so I really know how it would be to stay away. I have hardly been away from them except for the times I had been to My Aunts(Chithi’s) place @ mysore. I would start crying the moment I get to think about home. Those of you staying away from family,
GREAT GOING PPL!! This post is specially dedicated to you guys!!

PS: I saw KHNH very recently. Great Movie.I myself am too late, If you have not seen it yet - Do see! A great Work from the Chopra's! The Pic on top is from one of the scenes i liked. The movie was so Good & touching that in 3 different scenes i went crying even without my Notice...And to realize am in Tears! I Felt" Damn! Its just a movie...Y cry! Calm down "

I have a story to tell - about the chick

Hi, I have taken a big risk and here I am with you ppl…Friends of marutham.
I can’t stay here for long! So listen up to what I have to say…..
PS:This post is not for the friends who cannot read long posts!Don't curse me!

It was so wonderful inside mommy’s tummy. It was too dark, but still very safe & secure. It was very quiet no noise at all. No where else can I find that peace! Nor can you …What do you say? Isn’t that the best place in the whole world to be…No1 to bother you except for some loving touch from the outside. It’s your MOM.

Ok here we are back to the story. It was so wonderful inside. A little dark though. I haven’t opened my eyes yet. There are 4 others with me, sharing this little space with me inside Mommy. We often hear this Very Polite ladies voice. She seems talking to some one. Not quiet sure if it is mommy… One fine day we were all out of mommy…But, it was still dark. The five of us were inside this small room, and it still was warm, not as warm as inside. Then this fine day we heard that familiar voice again. She sounded very happy. There were some other voices too that I could hear. The other voices it sounded much sweet and gentle. It wasn’t one person’s voice. Then they left. And we sensed more space in the room. I felt something was missing! Din’t exactly know what! And there was the day, when I could not stay inside. I had to break open and come out – Break open the shell. It was so painful! I did not fit in! I decided to break open. Yes I was the first one to crack out! Yeah! Its me. The chick …It was too bright outside. Too bright! Then I heard some one else crack …it was them - my siblings! Then 3 of us were out. One egg was still in shape – no crack. The 3 of us kept staring at it because it did make some noises ….We kept staring and finally it was our little Sis out. HER EYS- Any one would fall for those twinkling, lightning eyes. She was so cute but weaker than us..too weak a chick. And then guess what we saw…MOMMIEE…She had come back! The 4 of us cuddled with her. She did seem a wonderful mommiee to be born for. But mommiee was not all that happy…I could sense she was Upset about something. Then did mommiee tell me this dirty secret. In the whole Farm Only I know this dirty little secret…..

Mommiee told that, the day 5 of us were out something happened. Out of the 5 eggs, one was so Huge & so Pretty! Mommiee named it the CUTEai -CUTE Muttai Muutai=egg! (Marutham:Sirikadheengapa! Kozhikku thann muttai Pon muttai!Kadhaya gavaninga…Over to chikki)And mommie could not wait to see us out. But then did the owner lady of the farm came , there were her grandchildren too-2 of them very young must be 4-5 years.Guess what, they too were not born alone.They were Twins! Unlike us, the unlucky PENTAPLETS. She looked into our basket. And the moment her eyes scanned the BIG EGG! It glows like a1000WATT Bulb. The hands of this strange existence on earth reached in to our little basket, and she took out the CUTEai.And off she went with her grandchildren. She went and CUTE’ai never returned. Mommiee waited for long thinking that CUTE’ai would return & then She broke with tears. Then days went on, the 4 of us had real great time with Mommiee..Sissy is now feeling better. She is stronger than ever. We 4 and Mommiee walk around the farm and play and sometimes try flying….Hehehe Mommiee tell us a lot about her life.How she came there like am telling you now. Also she told about the sad incidents in her life. One fine day there were lots of commotions in the farm. Mommiee too wasn’t feeling good!

There were people flocked inside the farm. And our lady brought another man with her. He saw us and nodded! I didn’t know what that NOD was for! But I did learn later. This man took Mommiee away and put her in a beautiful Cage. We thought he must be taking us too with him. He left- and my worst fear was “Will mommiee return ???” We didn’t know what happened to mommiee then !While these questions were in my brain…Sissy started crying. Though the 3 of us were there…she wouldn’t get consoled. She was crying. She refused to eat(Peck). She grew weaker and the lady din’t seem to take notice of it. And next day I saw the same Beautifull cage that mommiee was carried away in, this time our lady had brought it. She took all the 4 of us. I was so excited, I told my brothers that it was all over and we are going to where mommiiee is….We squeaked with JOY! We were taken inside the Room where the smell was not so good…. And the lady put her hands inside the CAGE! I remember, It is the second time seeing those hands so near. I was jumping in joy that I would be picked because am the eldest! And Err…! Our little princess was the first. We 3 took it happily…..after all she is our princess! She would be taken to mommiiee first! She was taken to an inner room in the gentle hands of our young lady….then she came empty hand! But only her hands were bare, her eyes were not- Filled with tears!! Why? I don’t know……
AND …….. Now I don’t know what is awaiting!! Do you know??? Tell me if you can! But Some thing tells me things are not normal!

Questions that this little fell’a would ask us when he realizes what is going to happen and what has already happened to their little princess and sweet mommiee!
*Are you killing us for you simply SUSPECT we would have been infected with that virus!! So all these days have you been feeding us to slaughter the chubbiest chicken.
*And how could you take away my little brother or sister (CUTE’ai) to have your breakfast!,While Mommiee was waiting for you , to see you feed her the breakfast! And when mommiee fell sick you decided she was not going to lay you the Eggs anymore and you decided to have CHICKEN 65 in your lunch menu!

The moment we chickens leave Momiee’s tummy,there is no security! We would never know when we would get our call! CALL OF DEATH!
We are BORN for DYING!!
Our ultimate goal of birth is to DIE for or by human beings. We will die as an EGG- Omelet.
Or a young chicken- If it is very healthy/very weak—Immaterial.
Or as a fully grown CHICKEN- as Chicken 65/ 45/ 5 and so on.. Worst is if it had catched up an infection or Virus as you people define. You are all so concerned only about you! You are bothered only to defend yourselves. You don’t care a bit for us. We are also born with every right to live in this world with you. But you all say you own us…like you invented Mommiee’s tummy? Or did you make us?? Then, we would be thinking you love us so much for the way you feed us and give us protection from other predators. One fine day you would take us to consume – immaterial how chubby or weak we are. No one can escape from your mouth, can we? If we never gain weight you complain we are useless and slaughter, or if we are too chubby you worry in few days we MIGHT lose weight and decide to sell us to slaughter for a big money! Will it ever occur in your brains that we are not the only species getting infected? Won’t you ever think of a remedy or some vaccine to protect us earlier? What science do you have that saves only you! It is like you cook and you alone eat not bothering about the starving people, unlike us who share…Oh that’s what the nature of you GREAT HUMAN BEINGS is. What’s the point in telling you that?
*You humans had been spreading this disease at a speed that is so very Fast- Faster than Rumors. Yeah it’s the AIDS. You humans had been spreading this disease and its virus HIV for the past several years so fast and effectively! Do you screw the heads of all the humans because you suspect they may have this Infection – AIDS?
Or do you throw them all in Boiling water and kill? Even here you Silly humans have discrimination…. The poultry farm in a developed country would be sprayed or Injected with the poison, while those creatures in an under developed countries would be thrown into Hot water or head screwed and killed. You eat us, you drink us, you also make money with our products, you get medicines from us, and finally when you hear we could have been infected you don’t try for a cure. YOU ULTIMATELY SLAUGHTER US!
Will you be able to find a way to make every living being of the world to co-exist peacefully and happily? You Human beings claim that you are superior to all other beings in the world. Well, Can you not use your super power brain and make our world a suitable place for every living being to co-exist safely, peacefully and happily?