Pesugiren pesugiren ....

Lost/Dead/Quit/Disturbed/Sick/Sad???

If you were clicking any of the above reason for my absence :D am sorry, you are wrong.

Sorry for not informing & sorry for being very irresponsible.

So for that reason I have a special track uploaded for the friends here. Before I forget- MISSED YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

For all the delay from my side am uploading three songs this time :)

Corrs Heart like wheel- Dialup
Corrs Heart like wheel- BB

Pesugiren Pesugiren-Dialup
Pesugiren Pesugiren-BB

Surprise Try hearing -Dialup
Surprise Try hearing -BB

And yes- finally after hearing many friends recommend - am into flickr .

Here is my flickr page- Click to view my pics.

The feeling that someone remembers you – is the best. Especially when they get mad at you …. You have every right to express your anger. J And thanks a TON :D for those many of you who have taken the pain to express it thro the angry offensive emails :P Kidding… they were real sweet mails. I am very glad I have such wonderful friends around. THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE. And not to forget the new friends who had visited the page Naveen, Sudhakar, MM, Dhil d Desperado and one of them MM & rsubras had returned to read the next post too :) .

Writers block..??? :P NO WAY!

I have the Anti-Writers block . For I have too many things that I wanted to write about.

JULY# about Since this could probably be the longest vacation for us- Me & Sis decided to ask mom to take a break & visit few relatives with my cousin as Dad was busy. So I was in charge, enjoyed Cooking, the household work & did some rearrangements too. I utilized this time to do all those challenging works which mom wud never let me do if she was around. One of which includes soaping the tiles in kitchen and cleaning them (You should have seen them SHINE! ;) ). The kitchen seems to love the makeover: P & so did our family. All these kept me tight. Then mom returned & we were busy with the house shifting formalities

FRIENDSHIPDAY: IT WAS TOO SPECIAL> Yes other than the present friends calling & wishing. There were couple of calls whose voice I could not recognize but they seem to know a lot about me & family. There were few name calling from some girls & then the boys distracted by still listing details about me. At one point I was gonna pull all my hair out of my head & run for I WANTED TO KNOW WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE bullying me with so much of love :) Yes! They did reveal their identity – the boys & girls who had shared the same class room with me. Was lucky enough to get to hear the voice of more than 10 of my 1^st standard- YES CLASS 1 friends. We were all out of touch for more than 17 years. But thro t contact with 2 friends – all the rest were able to trace out & they called up & wished. We were all on conference call & I totally enjoyed it. Could tell my friends almost all that had happened that time & I was the one who remembered many events. We all had a loud laugh & most of the friends were surprised to see me remember all of them & infact some of them told- “ You have not changed a bit. I could already see your sunshine smile & that kiddo face. NOT A CHANGE – only have grown sweeter. Am glad you are still the same girl we knew then. “

So were they- entire bunch was terribly sweet & it was like I got back an old treasure. Class 1 friends :D who wouldn’t feel that way!!!

AUG - SEP # First and the foremost…. My brother’s visit. He had come down from USA with his family & having been on vacation for the very first time during his visit it was great this time. After many years the 3 of us- me , bro & my sis we had lotta time to talk–bully-prank-tease-walk-laugh-feel happy-feel sad- ‘what not’ together. Trust me or not- we were chatting all night for the first few weeks of his arrival (One of the night we 3 had oatmeal at mid-night went chatting all the time to see appa wake up at 5 the next day morning and wish us good morning!!) that I caught up a soar throat & it hasn’t bid goodbye to me yet. My throat is so deep in trouble :P

And how can I forget mentioning about the GREAT time me & my MAAPS (maplai- My bro’s kid) had. Oooooooooooo I miss him so very much. There was not a day I woke up seeing someone else’s face but his, there was not a day I missed playing with him-chatting- watching TV(Yes ofcourse we have many things in commonone of which seem to be DISNEY channel) -laughing-eating-walking- and what not!! I can write a whole book about the time we both had- occasionally joined by the grownups :P my bro & Sis. I love him a lot & I miss him a lot. During his last visit I had taught him to show “I LOVE YOU” in sign language. And he seem to remember most of the things we used to do together during his previous visit which was probably a year back. This time he had often been showing the “I love you” to me & I used to do the same.

SOBS*SOBS*… Far across the distance The day he left I was so totally bugged that he was gonna leave. But that night he promised :) that he would get back in the 10^th of OCT (Wonder what that little head had thought to say that. I understood that he is gonna miss us the same way we all do from what he had said.) And I was preparing myself NOT TO CRY. I have told this a few times in my blog- I hate CRYING & crying in front of someone is SO NOT WHAT I COULD POSSIBLY SEE MYSELF DO. And the whole evening the rude inner voice was telling me “ No maruthu – Don’t u dare cry!...Never cry!!”

That night myself & Dad went to drop them at the airport & I enjoyed the ride , with my kutty maaps sitting on my lap. Dad & I browsed some of the books in the Higginbothams during the waiting time – and I never wanted any of the books from there. Appa did buy couple of books & then we came to the waiting area once anna was done with formalities. I avoided chatting with my maps after entering the airport since I was not strong enough to hide my feelings & I was not confident enough to BE STRONG/ACT STRONG.Only once did I talk to him during the waiting time- that when I asked him if he was sleepy & gave him a candy to chew on. When we were going to say bye – the little Vaalu did the “I love u” in sign language to me with a broad smile……..

Azhugai?? Ayyahooooo!! Enna oru izhukku…

ARRRRRRRRRRRRR- What more do u need to melt an aunts heart??? And he needs nothing but simply a smile to melt my heart away. CRAP! I had lost control & started crying….

(ASINGAMMMMM – U r crying in public!!!!!!!!! Suthi irundhavanga elaam thirumbi parthutangayyyyyaaaaaaaaa!!! Cha shame shame pupppppy shame’a pochu…. But athai manam thangalayee—ini naan yara thookuven- yaru enaku kana pinanu mutham tharuva-yaaru en kitta kadha kepa-- yaar en kita adam panuvaanga yaaru kooda naan crayons elam vechu colour panuven- yaaru enna pada soli adam panuva - yaar ena oru nal vidama anba vandhu ezhupuva?????- LOT MORE…. Azhudhadhu vekama poi naan appa pinadi poi oliya try pani “polaampa please’nu “ sonadhu nenacha – ippa kooda enaku siripa iruku!!! Che- puppy shame puppy shame)

Anna was surprised-shocked-puzzled-funny I dnt know what – at that state I could only understand he dint expect me cry. I never easily express my feeling by crying- I may be cry only when am all alone but never in front of someone else. He WAS SURPRISED! He carried maps & told him to give me a big hug & kiss.(Sari’nu vitangalaaa??? Avana thookiktu – andha thadupa thaandi neetiktu ena kita vara solli “ Athaiku oru big hug & kiss kudu” Namaku azhugai – odanju pona TAP’lerndhu thani vara mari aramichachu… I couldn’t control…idhula ivan vera kati puduchu mutham kuduthutaanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa….. Ambutu dhaan- I COULDN’T STOP – Tears went rolling – I kissed him tight saying “ Am gonna miss you sooo much!”) And appa tried to comfort me – but the only option for me was “ TURN BACK & RUNNNNNNNNNNNN”

Finally appa decided to get me out of the airport (or should I say out of embarrassment). The drive back home was not very joyful to me and appa was too sweet to desperately keep trying to make me talk. He started talking many topics that could divert me from -but nothing did. Alright change the topiccccccccc…..

I have recorded a couple of songs that I haven’t uploaded until today. They gotta be more than a month old now. One of the song was suggested by our friend – well-wisher CVR . When I first heard the track I told him :p “NO WAY! I can never sound like THAT!!” She was too good a singer– song from CORRS. And I heard the song over and over – through out the night ( yes while I was reading the novel which I love the most , I can read it over and over again- DOCTORS) and tried singing it the next day. It seems to come out well. May be not :P ! U gotta decide that.

And the other song which I happened to hear even before the movie was released is the “Pesugiren …” track from Sattham podadhey.

And Apologizing for disappearing – I got the special song where I have done something which I HAVE NOT DONE IN ANY OF MY PREVIOUS TRACKS. Sorry song ;)

And you can view some of the pictures that I clicked during the small trip we had last week. Mom,Dad, Sis & me… we all had a great time. We had traveled through thro 3 districts. Thiruvanaikkal in trichy was the best. There we have a shiva lingam At the foot of the Shiva lingam- cauvery water is found through out the year, and we did get a glimpse of that. And Sreerangam & Thiruvanaikkal happens to be in the middle of the place where the cauvery diverges into two and then joins later. We had our uncle & appa’s friend join us for the thiruvanaikkal trip.I will leave you with that. Will come back with something interesting the newt time.

Love,
Maruthu…

PS: Pesugiren pesugiren Lyrics was extra ordinary & without knowing that it is from the movie Satham podadhey & song by viva girls it took me a lot of time to find the lyrics. Could find many pages for Pesugiren pesugiren free mp3 download. I have no clue about the movie - i only liked the song.

MEDIA Culture - growing Uncultured.

Here is my version of the song I'll stand by you. Not a great song. But loved it especially by one of the performers in American idol. Reminded me of the tamil song " Kangalil enna eerama? Nenjinil enna baarama?"
To hear the song please click on the appropriate links given below,
I'll stand by you - For Dial up users
I'll stand by you -For BB users

Now, coming to the post :)
MEDIA Culture - Growing Uncultured.
Last week was excellent for We in our family did get some time to spend with together & it was Quality time ;). TOUCH WOOD. On Sunday morning while I was browsing through the news paper, I came across the TV programme column and this idea to watch a movie together with family struck me. And my eyes fell upon one movie that was joked alot about during the college days, starring one of the heroes from the movie boyz(which i have not seen yet- never will see too.)

I was told it is an ADULTS only movie. So I rechecked the timing- it was the evening movie!!

DUH!!!

Are people losing sense these days?? Don’t we get to watch a decent movie ATLEAST on weekends??On a Sunday evening..come on! There got to be a mistake! But nope, that was the movie played that evening & we ended up watching a different show.

Its time Tamil channels also better start to have the U,U/G,A notifications while playing movies- the trend that Star movies follow really well.

MOVIES- These days they are playing adult(e)rated movies on channels that are supposed to be showing family entertainment movies. It is the responsibility of the parents to make sure kids are watching good programs only. Sometime back(a couple of times) they did play the movie Boyz on Sunday & on a festive day. This movie is not a good choice for kids to watch. Does it mean this generation is taking everything for granted? Those who chose to telecast these- are they trying to take any revenge- probably a childhood problem? Is there even someone in the censor board who do some WORK AT ALL? People who telecast -Don’t they have any idea about the fact that people sit with family; mainly that children watch these?

These days most of them in the movie industry do not seem to realize the responsibility & that is one reason am so against people going crazy over those who don’t even realize the fact that they are spoiling & corrupting young minds.

Not just hero’s, but the heroines too.I accept that the competition is too much for these girls these days to get an offer, because the directors have lost sense about on what basis one should be chosen to act as heroine. And that has brought in a lot of junks inside the industry, which once had heroines like ….. (am only getting the picture of black & white movies’s! :O yes ofcourse….There are decent one’s in later years too..) Revathy, Suhasni….. And a FEW more.

These days the need for a glamour artist exclusively is cut down. Lucky directors! May be that’s one reason they don’t mind about getting cheap girls (No offence- girls who come in at cheap rates to act) to act as heroine. They don’t care about the kind of moves they are asked to do in a dance & the costumes for the dance & sometimes the dance itself actually has no role in that scene or the following one. Best example in that category is - in the movie Rhythm(Not a bad movie though :P )When the kid is enjoying the rain at night in the terrace there is this song Ayyo pathikuchu…pathikuchu… And I went like. “Did I by mistake change the channel or something?” From no where people start dancing in the stage & the kid who was supposed to be in bed sleeping is there in the podium sitting watching the dance. Apdiye potaalum..ippo mazhai ila peyudhu..edhuku indha ponnu pathikuchunu koovings?? Kodumai !?!

Our tamil industry hero’s are not exceptional- they are ok with any silly mannerisms & some stupid dialogues that do have double meaning. Vulgar dialogues(Sombu movies), rubbish gestures(Poriki – yaaradhu pokiri’nu padikrahdu??....i meant porikki seyra velaigal), Horrible onscreen behaviour , NOTHING-BUT RUBBISH. I can understand if they are trying to screen a bad guy turn good guy. In that case if hero’s act as how villains would, its fine. But they are imposing on us to accept the hero be that way through out the movie – that is being the actual personality- the hero do stupid things , tease girls, do all rubbish, Behave like an absolute Idiot , Speak filthy language, Dress indecent, still more to list….YUKK!The very thought that these are the guys – today’s young generation is going crazy over annoys me, ire me & worry me!

What are they to be celebrated as great heroes for?? Instead they can go for a Mr.Bean or say vivek rasigar mandram & have a huge cut out for him (Come on – give the guy some credit, if you can take these morons as HERO! He atleast puts a smile &even make you laugh! He has a huge fan club :D Lets not pull him here…..)

My only question is why all these hype for SOME GUY who do not even care about what he is corrupting the young minds with? Certain things cannot be undone & corrupting young minds is one! Well, the language~ Dialogue- acting- dance- ….in the name of this, these guys do all funny awkward things & they are accepted by a huge crowd. To be frank not just accepted but celebrated too!

In a crowd where everyone is a fool but one man who may differ in the idea may be looked upon as an idiot, that doesn’t leave him with option to act a fool. But that is what is happening today! Even those who do understand this, act stupid – they just want to move with the crowd. So they also join the bajan! Although they know that this guy is absolute curse for the culture!

Name just any movie – any actor - any thing. They go HOOGAA HOOGAA!

If it’s the TOSS…”hey macha Toss superdaa..Naan first day first show parthen da.nee?”

Or PORIKI-…”Dey PORIKI…enna padam da… Namma vaal/mooku/kannu enama nadichrukaar pathiya. Kovil dhaan”

Or FREEDOM-… “Freedom! Summa top gear’la odudhula padam. 3 dhadava pathuten dee!”

I have no personal aversion towards any one in the movie industry. But I do respect people who act with SOME DIGNITY & RESPONSIBILITY, which is like....very rare now. Thanks to people with some dignity like ;) aravind swamy who has gently withdrawn from this rat race.

If and only if the directors, script writers, lyricist & actors (well they can choose what not to do atleast!) act more responsible, things will get any better. Otherwise we may be leading the future to grow numb to such non-sense. Simply by repeatedly getting us used to see such non-sense they are trying to impose & make us take it as sense. But non-sense is always going to be that. And we must not forget it.

We are able to understand that the media is not actually bothered about what to play, when to play & movie makers too forget what SENSE is. If we are paying Rs 50 for a drink & there a sip of drainage in it we cannot ignore it. Will you? So is the case when they make movies. They should rate them properly- HONESTLY! And those who telecast them in TV should know what to play when. Its alright when you have any non-sense in an adult rated movie. But they keep giving us non-sense in those that the younger generation watch and try to get the idea that THIS IS NOT WRONG, when it is absolute CRAP! Individual has to be responsible. Its each one’s responsibility to know what is right and wrong. But it would be better if these people in the media act responsible too.

The present TV culture is spoiling kids. The programs where kids are asked to call the VJ’s to have a chit chat with shows how far it has gone. Sometimes watching kids speak I that show, really would make you feel dizzy. They are so much spoiled by the media.

NOTE TO THE PARENTS:

# Know what your kid is watching.

# Suggest the shows that are suitable for them to watch.

#Encourage them to go outside & play. Trust me, it is better than watching the stupid box.

#Channels like Discovery, National geography,History channel can also be fun.Do find out programs that could interest your kid in the junior time.Of course Disney,pogo,CN,Nickelodeon,...goes without saying. :)

# It is better not to watch certain shows with kids around. I do not imply late night shows, but today – yes the shows that really do have some not-for-kids stuff. That also includes some of the songs – in the music channels.

#Never hesitate to tell your kid that – "This is not what it is, these are buffoon in the movies that act this way simply to make money. In real world people do not talk or behave this way. If they do so they will be looked upon as nothing but fools."

# Do tell them that- it is only an entertainer and not a preacher.

# When you see your kid imitate any of the acts/dialogue's/song that are not appropriate for kids (seena thaan too)- stop the kid right there & tell that it is Wrong & not to follow or imitate these. It may be entertaining & amusing for you to see your child imitate but it is never good. This could in fact encourage the child to create a passion towards such things.

# Do get some good videos , nice movies and ask your kid to watch it, you can join him too and make the time a pleasant memorable time.

# Encourage the kids to get involved in creative works than watch TV. These days the cable channels do not have nothing big left for the kids to learn from. They are out of good stuff. Only rarely do you find something nice & do watch it with them.

# Try to make your kid understand what may be suitable to watch & what not in your absence too. Encourage the kid being responsible by reward-punishment method. Punish doesn’t mean spanking the kid :)

Let them grow healthy…. Healthy mind is necessary for a healthy body.

Growing up cultured is even more important!

All that I have shared in this post are my personal views. They are not intended to offend any one. Thavarai meendum meendum seivadhanaal, adhu sari endru aagi vidaadhu! Adhanai pondradhey idhu - indraya thiraipada kalachaaram.

Tags 2 & 3 and "Uppu kallu" song-My version

Back with the remaining two tags :D
TAG 1 - Here
TAG 2 & 3 follow ....

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Tag 2 - #8 Tag

GOPS Tagged me on this. Here is what the tag is about. Rules follow,

- You are supposed to write 8 facts about you.

- You are to tag eight more people

- You should tell them that they are tagged & they are supposed to follow these rules.

Well, I am planning to write “#8 Facts” that most of you may not know about me.Good things about TAG! Before I start writing my tag I wanted to share this piece of information about tags. They are my opinion & u may differ with it .(I really don’t care so don’t bother to complain about the idea. No offence - sometimes its better i disclaim before i hear from .... other than my friends)

Tags are like social party- they help us get to know our friends & they create a warmth around the blogsphere. Sometimes it helps you remind that YOU ARE NOT ALONE –JOBLESS. There are other such people around you too. ~~~KIDDING!!! ~~~ Tags really help you do THE THING! They help you do a self analysis which is most important in anyone’s life to be the better you. These tags help you know your tick marks & Cross marks. They infact help you mend yourself & again – u may differ in this view & i… :P Well go on u can spill it out. I still got lot more to write…But I should start of with the tag or there may be someone who hardly comes in here to read but always complains something or the other about the page. Again - IDC!

#8 Facts…

You may not know these facts about me :P but promise you wudn’t run away from my blog but return again :D heheee….

1) DANCE – Well, I was so crazy about dancing during my school days. No no.. dnt imagine Jim carey dancing..i wasn’t bad. I have bagged some prizes for the dancing – including winner cup in “THILLANA THILLANA”- THE ONCE POPULAR TV SHOW (Sun tv) But I stopped dancing after certain age in order to concentrate in studies :P(STOP LAUGHING) & to have a family that is proud to have you ! :P

2) KIDS – I just love kids. That doesn’t mean they can mess around. I take either extremes with kids. When they are well behaved – the most love would be from my side & when they are misbehaving – I would the first one in scene to STOP them being that way. And I guess they understand its for their good :) – they do come back to me with all smiles after the disciplining session is over.

3) NEAT & NICE: I want the things around me to be nice & neat. Sometimes am too picky. Dress- food- Colours in ur curtain.. name it. They need not be very expensive but they HAVE TO BE NICE & NEAT to look at, b’coz It automatically puts a smile on your face. (That doesn’t guarantee a clean room my friend. My room can sometimes be as messy as it can)

4) Cooking: Ahh…. Most interesting place. When I cook I dnt stick to the rules. I make my own dish. I hardly follow the routine technique. And No talking in kitchen, No thoughts abt anything but cooking, NO ‘NOT RELATED TO COOKING’, Definitely there can be singing ;). And TRUST ME! Every time I follow this when I cook. There has never been a FLOP DISH in my kitchen chemistry. (To me Cooking is chemistry!)

5) Stage: Stage had always been special in my academic life,may it be school days or college. I was always there performing dance or singing or name it… in all the events until my middle school. During High school days I was the secretary and offlate most of the times escaped from singing or dancing. Once special time I never can forget is when I was asked to compere our house’s(TEAM) event. During the rehearsals I knew it was gonna suck big. The singers were too squeaky & the dancers were off the beat. After stopping my stage appearances as an entertainer – I dint want to get back there in that suit. I was either an orator or the secretary or announcing or simply with the Choir group or as sports person/Team. I still remember the time how I pulled it off through the event. IT WAS DIFFICULT TO LIE WITH A SMILE – CALLING IT A BEAUTIFUL PERFORMANCE WHEN YOU KNEW IT SUCKED TOTALLY! It was then I thought may be I should have done some piece myself. But it was fun to laugh it off after the show in the dressing room with the house mates and later with the class mates. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the 4 year= 8 semesters of college never have the staffs forgotten to ask me 2 take a seminar- not even one semester. The news just kept spreading. Whenever I was asked to present in the class room seminar – I would try to come up with a lie –“Sir, am not very good. Excuse me this time….”There would be the answer “Don’t lie Maruthu :) I have heard in our staff room. There is a news that you are a born teacher. You already have one in the other subjects why do you not take one in my subject? …” It always ended up me saying a YES! I loved teaching One thing about seminars is – the 60+ friends were sometimes too over joyed that they would keep annoying you, which came down to some extent after the 2^nd year.

6) Cartoons : Love them anytime all time. And living without watching cartoon is so not possible. The time I had been to mysore & there watching tv that had no cartoon channels was TERRIBLE! Seriously… For more than a week without Cartoons inspite of having a tv that had cable connection would be like how a drug addict would feel without the drugs for the first few days. Even during exams I used to watch atleast one show for the day.

7) Sense of humor: Close circle of people would know that. I have a strange sense of humor. I cannot control laughing the moment the joke strikes in my headSometimes during the class hours too- my super brain would relate to something very hilarious or terrific funny imagination – that would trigger my laughter which can get really loud. Sometimes I would not be able to control it- but laugh out too loud during a lecture. . I would get terribly funny with my jokes. Walking with friends- happen to see something & my imagination would get WILD>.. and I remember the times my sis would literally go begging to stop joking becoz her stomach hurts laughing. Few friends have also mentioned about my sudden out burst of laughter during class lectures (Very few no.of.times) & has questioned why? Because am a very sincere silent student!

8) Turtle – Lion principle.

I live by my principles & sometimes I stick to them so firm, there is no second thought about my decision. At times am as adjusting & tolerate very much. I am compromising & calm as much as a turtle. But at times when it comes to my loved one’s (or even my most sensitive issue) am as furious as a lion. I canot tolerate anyone messing with someone I love so much. They may not react but I would be first one in field to fight the war! And they would go like “ Was that YOU?? That was unbelievable. Why?.... ”Deep down inside they would have that joy & smile that pops which only would happen when they understood you totally. To look back even I would go “Was that me…PHEW!”

EXTRA- NEVER’s in my life - Circus show, Movie Theatre (Not even during college days- TRUST ME!) , Fire Crackers ……. NEVER WILL THEY BE!

NOTE: Notice the pic up there?? In memory of John Ritter who passed away in 2003 Sep 11. I love this show a lot & he is missing around in later episodes. It is really sad that he is missing. I did a little editing on the pic on a BORING DAY! Do u recognize what the serial is ??
Am leaving this as an OPEN tag. Anyone & everyone who comment may please kindly take this up if they are interested ! I shall be glad.

********Thinking blogger award. ********

TAG 3- Thinking blogger award.

Hm.. Our friend Brute passed it on to me.

I now have to pass it to 5 others. I was thinking of people who are not dormant with blogs came to my mind & the 5 categories automatically reminded me few. Choosing those who flashed first are now getting this & they would have to pass it 5 others .

STORY: Direction screen play – editing… NONE OTHER THAN *Harish* ( Big bro)
His king kong returns :P & recently the one on Himesh… :P Hilarious.

POETRY: I classified this to tamil. And there are two people share equal credit
*Dreamz*& *Bharani* ( I rembr t nick- I used to call him kavignarey… )

HUMOR: If there gotto be a funny post anytime all time. There is no exception for his comments too :P None other than * My days Gops!*

PHILANTHROPY: *Balaji*(I am reminded of his comment on my post when I wasn’t able to help the girl in the railways station. He has done some social work too)

GENERAL: Two people came to my mind Srijith & *Nirek*.May it be any important incident you can find a post about it that would really make you think. Since srijith has already got this I would like to pass it on to nirek.

Now they have to tag 5 others under 5 categories ( The categories may not necessarily be the same as I have done.)

Here is my version of the song "Uppu kallu thaneerukku yaekka pattadhu.."

Uppu kallu - Dial up version

Uppu kallu - BB version
After a long time i heard one of Bombay Jayashree's track from the recent/decent movie & fell in love with it after the very first hear !
Mostly because of the feel of the song ,the voice - to top it all ,the way the heroine has brought out the feel in this song with the LOST LOOK in her face :)
There is something very disturbing about this song - the actress or the picturization ..I really do not know how to put it. But the Song is amazing. I wish you hear& WATCH the original track too :)

Well thats all from my side.... :) Its your turn now

TAG & mozhi song

Tagged by Gee!

Katrin mozhi ~ FOR DIALUP USERS!

Katrin mozhi ~ FOR BB USERS!

"How weird are you?" -> That is the question :P
I know its been just few weeks/days back i wrote a tag..But what to do.. ;) i love it when friends tag ! HEHEHE.....
Naama Tag thedi poradhu illa ~~ vandha tag'a vidradhilla :P
So here goes the tag..the tag is about the weird thing about you.
Actually the tag is you have to tell 5 wierd things about you..But i am gonna share one thing here today..this is the about the
~Weirdest day I lived through
~Weirdest waiting....
~Weirdest bus travel....
~Weirdest hit....
~Weird - me & my strange GUT!

Achaa 5 weird… Sapaaaadi.Ippo taguku varen .

Now this is about an incident that happened during my early days of college,First year i guess.
We had this subject handled by the Mech., dept people! Mechanical department staffs are of two types - one group who are very practical & cool people. And the other group with the dumbest, few sadists. By the end of the semester we were asked to get the signatures of few staffs (Second staff, Third staff) whom we haven't met either, then the H.O.D’S signature. Since we were non- mechanical students we had no idea about the staffs there. Whole day was spent in searching them here & there. I wonder where they would disappear on a day where they are most wanted. They know they had to sign our records….but they were neither found in their desk nor in the staff room..and no where in the department. Myself & my best buddy- since we finished the work earlier we were the first from our department to hit the mechanical department for signature. We waited a whole long day – roamed here and there in search of who ever had the stamppad, seal, ink, pen….ooofffffffff and yeah most importantly those who had to sing this.Since we leave really early to college we don’t generally have our break fast which is wrong. By the time we went to the H.O.D’S room for his signature, he was gone! Seems like he had to go on round only today! The mechanical department H.O.D is really a nice person and a good friend too ;) He used to come in the same bus we both travel in.And day one of college - he was the first person (other than student) we both made friends with. He is really a nice person…but I wonder why he had to go for rounds today?! So, we waited outside his room for really long hours – we din’t want to take a chance. Already there was a rumour that H.O.D would not sign any more records from tomorrow – because it is late already! But we were not told about this at all.So we both stayed there- right there in front of his room to get the signature. After some tiresome waiting – there he was. He signed the record & then we both got out of his room with a relief like you just escaped an accident.From the morning till that time all that we did was- walk – search – talk- walk –search –talk- Oops in this confusion we forgot one thing- totally!Generally human beings have something called as food. They call it break fast in the morning-lunch in the afternoon & Dinner in the night!

And guess what – I looked at my watch to see if we shall go to the canteen for lunch. It was no time for lunch..LOL!!! It was almost 4:20 in the evening. And…previous night I had slept without having my dinner coz’ we had the record work to finish, morning break fast? No – wrong question to the wrong person- now no lunch…and the bus will leave in another few minutes! Oh my god! We both rushed to the college bus as fast as we could. Finally we got into the bus. And both of us gasped & found that there was no seat available to sit. Ok… we are used to standing in our bus. All the way from college which is at Potheri we were standing till we reached St.thomas mount. This was the last stop before ours.. but we do have a pretty long way to go.And from here , it was only our stop friends in the bus. Very few of them. I moved to the back end & my buddy moved to a few seats ahead. Now here is what happened. I know I was totally worn out for the day…. And really really tired- had no stamina to stand or walk. But did manage to get to the seat. When I was right about to sit down- the very sportive driver took a narrow turn (There are few of the drivers at SRM – they are like sports stars.SPEED is all that they know!Trust me..they drive so damn fast & never slow down ever while taking a turn.) I was almost in the seat but I hit my elbow hard on the window rod. Ada paveee….correct’a ippo dhan thirumbanuma..adhuvum ipdi kevalama. BOOM!!! It did hurt but not very much. Immediately after this something very weird happened! I was sitting in the seat & I knew was losing myself. I started to feel dizzy & it was a very strange feeling, I started to lose my vision & then I could not hear the people around me. I was hoping that I am going to faint. I know what you are thinking…I wasn’t in a position to call out anyone for help.Moreover all these happened real quick. I was totally losing my consciousness – well that what it seemed like! I thought ”Aha..Namaku ticket kedachachu pola irkuey. ..!!” When this was slowly happening… after a few fraction of seconds I was able to hear – really too low ,as in how would it sound if someone mutes ur music player & then slowly increase the volume from zero to a level that is considerably loud. And I went like Oh my gosh! I was suppose to be unconscious! (Faint)…now what!Then I started to hear my bus mates loud & clear…but still something else was not right. Am still not able to see!!!!

Yes! I was not unconscious but still am not able to see. I realized i am having full consciousness now. But OH! OH!!I can’t see a thing…not a spot of light or anything at all!! It was like some one has blind folded your eyes with a very dark black cloth & u have your eyes open. And by now- I am fully back to normal. Everything is loud & clear but am not able to see anything at all. Now I knew its time (or I did have time to ) to call out for my friends. I called out for my best buddy who was a few seats ahead. Then I called out for the other friends too…

They all came to my seat and this girl (Machi in our group- that’s wat she says. Pasanga elam machaan’na ponnunga elaam machi dhaney! :P ) from B.Arch who was really a koothu party(FUN lover) was the first –Machi-> “Enna machi? What matter? Any boochi??”

Me-> Adhelaam iladi – am not able to see!

- to my best buddy- Are u there dee….am not able to see!

(All this with my eyes wide open looking at the side where they are all standing!Bus is still on move)

Machi ->(Meranduta) At my buddy – machi iva thookathula pesuvala?

Her-> No dee….. no way! Never! @me- ey are u awake- enna pesra?!Look at me!

Me-> Ada goyaa! Adhaan dee solren. Am not able to see!! :P

Buddy-> Look thro the window- andha payan romba nerama inga parthutey irukaan..I guess he want to tell u somehting

Me-> Dha chee...nala naliye NOT INTERESTED! ....Inaku velayadadha dee.. Not able to see!! Unmaya! :)

In this gap our little friend from I.T deptmtn….Started to panic.. Enna dee achu ivaluku? Mornign kooda nala dhaney irundha…..(Almost in tears)

Me->“ Eye ey..ippo ena achu!! Chill dee… En ippo tension agura?!

Machi-<” Machi…Ena machi joke adichu – velayaatu kamichutrukey?! :O Nakala?!Tension agama…. Veladuriya machi?! U r playing a prank right!!

Me-> Ada koomutta!! Illa dee..Trust me I cant see a thing!

Buddy->(Tension agi poyi…sat next to me and started shaking me really hard)

Me-> Enna dee..why r u playing this..Listen am awake!WIDE AWAKE!! Stop shaking me! Am conscious & i know what am talking! Last stop’la madhu’oda kutta teacher was with me. She got down. Then this is what happened (I explained everything from getting hit in elbow…)Now am awake but not able to see! Got it…I thought you must all know what happened. In case I lose consciousness again.

I spoke all these very clearly with no shake- no tears in my eyes..no panic, no tension,no fear, infact I was totally cool. I wasn’t upset nor worried but only confused a little bit!

MACHI-> Hey! :O Iva theliva dhaan dee iruka!!! She is not sleeping…She is awake! That kutta was only sitting with her. I saw. @me- Ey unaku ezhuga varlaya dee? May I remind you that you r not able to see….Edho lab experiment explain panra mari solli mudikra… Is this ur soul in your body?! :O Alo… Konjam bayam irukanum machi!!

Buddy- > Sathiyama nee velaydala?!!! U r playing – illa dee.. For what u r saying this is not the way u wud be if it is true!

Me-> Adhaan matter’a….. Crying?! I don’t know… Edhuku dee azhanum….<

Anga aadi poi irundha enga senior takunu kitta vandhu pulse parthutu… Saaptiya? Lunch saptiya?!

Even before I could open my mouth to reply..

Buddy -> Oh my god!! She dint eat lunch , nor break fast & not even yesterdays dinner!

Senior-> Give her water first!

NO ONE HAD ANY LEFT!! But eureka!! I have :D

Me->Yeah ..i do! Can u get it? Its in my bag.

Then my buddy took out the Aquafina bottle! It was heavy…

Senior-> Adi paavi – its full! What are you…. You didn’t eat food- din’t drink water!! First you drink this water.

I had spent an entire day with nothing but oxygen. How did I forget to drink water? :O The bottle was full- not a sip did I have for the whole day until now.

I grabbed the bottle & drank & drank & emptied the bottle in one gulp.

Now I started to close & open my eyes …..Hoping I may be able to see…

(Even till now ...I do not know what bloody GUT that was, I dint cry nor was upset! People around me were.Slowly people around me started to scare me- they panicked ….but I never lost hope or felt like crying.I should have ! Come on – u cant see- u weren’t able to hear a thing..then u lost consciousness! Now u r back but you cannot see a spotof light! I knew what it was like to be blind-atleast for few minutes! I DO!! But nothing scared me that day. Engerndhu ivlo dhillu??

I lost consciousness- had a feeling that I may not survive this. I really do not know how I was like that! And what was that!!! How can something like this happen. You are only not able to see…. Haven’t heard anything like this before either. I do not have any vison problem either! There are absolutely normal – perfect!)

After that whole 1 litre of water – I was slowly able to see light!

And I went like … :O WOW!!

Me-> "I guess I can see now!! Yeah I am able to see things….."

Everyone -> Really? THANK GOD!!! Are you serious - really?!

Me-> ( Now very joyfully!!) Hey DOG!! Am able to see..i can see everything… i can see u dee naye! I can see u machi.....blah blah.. I yelled out all their names pointing each one!

Me-> Machi ivanga elaam ok..nee kooda tension aviya?? :P Kouthitiye dee!!

Machi -> It was u dee... How can i take it cool?

Ahaaaaaaaaaa!!! THOTUUTA!

I COULD SEE EVERYTHING VERY CLEARLY! Like never before!

What a weird day it was!! What a weird feeling it was!!

When we got down the bus – all of us knew it was the worst night mare. When we got down Appa was already at the stop, waiting in the car. Me & my buddy got into the car & appa asked the driver to drive back home. But sadhigari :P my buddy blurted out what happened that day!

Appa got really worried and he took me to our family doctor – another prank master who loves to play jokes! But he is an expert! One of the best doctors now & appa’s good friend. All I knew was – they are both gonna yell at me for skipping food. In one way it is true. I guess it was starving for so many hours that these things happened- otherwise it was just a mild hit. He asked me this first “ When was the last day you ate any food?”

I toldyaaaa .....“ He is a genius!” :P

I went like… “ Uncle- yesterday evening I had,,, then night… today in college- was planning to have lunch but it was time for bus!”

Appa & Uncle à [[Fumes]]

Uncle->” Fuel ilaama plane otalaamnu partha…adhu nadu vanathula poi- dumeeeeeeelnu keezha uzhundhu norungidum! SCIENCE!! U know?… po….poi ozhunga saapdu..ilati next time periya oosiya onnu kuduthu daily adhula unaku sapatuku badhila edhavadhu chemical kuduthu kutha vendiyadhu dhaan .You are perfectly alright . Do not worry. It is weakness! Only few days back you recovered from fever. How dare u dnt eat food for so many hours & I wonder how you survived even with out driniking water! ”

And he was talking for another half an hour .. and yeah! Appa- DOC- Amma all of them spoke what I had to hear! ;) And then later that day amma asked “ Why and how come you dint cry?” I did not have an answer... I just din't - din't feel like. May be I knew that everything is going to be alright.

It was the weirdest thing happened to me & weirdest way I had reacted to it!!!

There it goes! The weird Tag is done!

"Indha weird podhuma innum konjam venuma (:P) ???"

This is something i never wanted to recollect - but romba weird pathi solanumna idhu gnabagam vandhruchu. Btw, Naan already sila maadham/years munadi weirdo tag ezhudinen :)

Tag paninapram ezhudhama irukradhu nama history'laye illa.. Adhaan idha vera mari ezhudhinenen..

Ayo..romba mokkai potutena? :D Hehe…

chill chill...

Indha vaati post padicha elaarukum "COKE!!" :) -- Thambi kuduthutiya coke?! Also 1 more

Paatu kettutu ponga .. :) Adhu innum kodumayacheynu solreengala..appo pona post’la pota cake kettu poi micham iruku :P adha saaptu ponga!! :P

CHEERS!!

Elaarum ezhudurangalanu therila :) but panradhu en kadamaichey! (:P)

5 pera Tag pananumaam....

( Tag - idhu dhan actual task -- To write 5 weird facts about you. And tag 5 more people)

Last year i wrote the same tag- SAME TAG- But different content - You could read it in OCTOBER 2006 archive- second post! :)

Elaarayum Tag pana aasai :D but indha vaati maati vidradhu :P ~ Ivargal 5varai!

Dreamzz,
Harish-Mask,
Gopps-Devil,
Gops-My days
Jagan.

Elaarukum CAKE & introducing new lyricist :)

Netraiku birthday :D

Vaanga elaarum cake sapidalaam.... Eduthukteengala??Ippo saptuktey padinga :)

Elaarukkum vanakkam..... :)
Amaam..idhu romba rapid fast dhaan..
Pona post pottu 2 naal achu... adhukula enna post 'nu kekaadheenga :D ??

We have to move on..that is life... :)
Nethiku Birthday - and also innoru special post... :)
This birthday was simply amazing- rocking- ....... HAD A BLAST!! :D
Thanks to all those lovely hearts who wished :)

Night 2' varai calls - wishes... :) Thoongi oru vazhuya got up for the big day :)

Inga neraya peruku theriyadhu - marandhurupanganu nenachen..but quiet few some how made it that day .. :) Chat box messages were over whelming & also the comments :)
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!! :) - ungalayum dhaan - siringa.. :)

This Birthday was special - mukkiyama oru sila vishayangal(#)

#Last Birthday in student life...OK mela padipom...but ippo'dhaiku oru break ilaya...REGULAR STUDENT life mudidhu :P Mela padichaley irregular dhaney !! ;)

# Quitting teen last year- this year quitting TwenTY & entering TY 1.... :)

#Pona birthday varai vetti rani velai veti ilama..(Ofcourse course inum mudila- padichutu irundhen(ken) ) - this birthday kaila velayoda kondadinom illa :D

#College days - - last year - oru B.Tech STUDENT'a kadasi birthday.

#And elaarum- adhaavadhu kondadina elaarum (Puriravangalauku puriyum) kattayam serndhu irupomgra oru birthday...Next year yar engayo.... epdiyo......

#Elaathayum vida - this year birthday was very special with a lovely gift from my sis.... :D She got me a sooooooooooooper microphone :D . The best gift EVER!!

#Anna's black forest cake & Amma appa's jewel- gifts were also very special :) and many other nice things from friends & relatives ...

OK...ippo matter'ku varen.
Sometime back our friend Gee had sent me the lyrics that he had written for the song – Warriors Of heaven & Earth – ARR’S Chinese Album. Anupi padalamanu ketaanga… Idhelaam unaku romba over maruthu ’nu neenga solradhu nala ketkudhu..But amaidhi…amaidhi... amadihi....

Namakku project - test -review adhu idhunu konja naal idha marandhey poiten..aprama oru naal indha anjala parthapo.."aha- promise paninomey! "apdinu oru chinna kutra unarvu...enna having his lyric - without having sung was little bit uncomfortable for me. Nama pona week'ku munadi -konja naala CRAZY'A anga inga'nu suthi kandadha kudichu throat'a konjam keduthu vechrundha time adhu.....Sari- edra aruvala - nadakradhu nadakatum'nu naanum mic'a eduthu padinen :P ...

Oru 3 trial panen....Adhuku mela..namma mic out...dnt worry not the microphone- en voice.

Sari idhai ippo anupidalaam'nu anupinen.....Gee patta kettutu romba perundhanmaya- nala iruku apdi ipdinu solitanga ;) Infact this was done simply to get his lyrics in musical form...so romba casual'a - (quality nalla ilanu solla varen) jolly'a padinadhu....Gee paatu podalaam..podra alavu nalla iruku'nu solitaanga..Naan kooda sonen..."Namma page'la kaladika neraya peru waiting.....So konjam yosanaya dhan irukunu :P" Kindly bare with the quality- this was just a casual try! -Chumma apdiye jolly’a try panadhu !

Sari sari- aniyayama mokkai potuten...hehe...adikka elaarum kalla kooda eduthuteenga...i cud se that... Elai-- yaaru adhu avlo periya paarangalloda nikradhu?? Shivaji kiterndhu sutupteenga pola....Illa illa...keezha vayunga- edharundhalum pesi theerthukalaam. ...Ukarunganne....Colour kudikreengala... tappu tippunu tension areenga... :P

Sari- elarum en kitta enna comedy venaalum panunga..we have a guest this time..so all behave :P

En mela ingaye kaladikalaam...anaa yaravadhu quality pathi soneenga....apram kettakovam varum- adhaan solitom'la quality nala irukadhu- idhu jolly'ku panadhunu- enna panatum karoake kedakala :) So plz....adjust !!! Adhelaam panuveenga- karkalai dhaan inum keezhey vaikavillai... :P
Apdiye pocket'la potuktu waiting...
Here is Gee's post on the same in his page -> (Gee's page) :)

NILAVIN MUGAMOODI

Lyricist :Geeyavudeen - Z dhanunga! :)

To see the lyrics - you could visit -Z's post on that

Original Track: Warriors of heaven & Earth.

To hear the song - BB - இங்கே சொடுக்கவும்.

Dial up users - இங்கே சொடுக்கவும்.

Sari- ippodhaiku naan jute.... Thoookams comings :P
Andha kadasila irukradhu yaarupa - Andha paraangala vechiyapa...Thambi/Thangachee/Yekkav ... ..Unaku apple juice undu...sariya?? :) Pechungrapo- pechoda irukanum- sinna pulla thnama illa iruku neepanradhu :P

Note for Gee : Thanks for a lovely post Gee :) That was relly nice of you!

The Prisoner! --> A must read Story!
Hello every one — I was planning to post this Short-long-story sometime back. But now is the right time for me to post it….with all delicate touches made.
For those who may not have the patience to read the story- you could read the bottom lines & listen to this song here.
Ninnai Charan adaindhaen.. -- Sung by ME -Marutham!! & DONT FORGET TO LEAVE UR FEEDBACK! :)
For the patient sweet ones - you shall enjoy the whole feast! :)

Spare ur time & read it- if u felt it was waste of time Enna aal vechu adinga (:P) Hehe! .....

The Prisoner!

Like any classical story we start ours with a happy family- it was the Christmas Eve. The big piano lying in the corner of the room was illuminated by the dim glowing lamp. And the room was filled with the aroma of the fresh Lilly that was in the vase. A beautiful young lady in her white night suit almost looking like an ANGEL was playing the carol. And then tom came to mom to ask for something. But when he neared the piano – he watched his mom- she was playing the piano with all smiles & glee… for he remember his mom mentioning – “ Christmas was the greatest time ever in my life Tom! That is the time- every year myself and my 4 sister & the 3 brothers used to sing and merry while mom used to be play all our favorite carols. Every time I play these carols – I feel their presence & I relive those lovely childhood days “ So Tom stopped and just watched his mom standing by the side. Well what question he wanted to ask….You shall know that shortly.

A year passed and in some freaky accident TOM had lost his mother. Tom’s dad almost lost himself after the death of his wife. It almost seemed like an excuse for him to escape from his responsibilities as a father. Well he never was a responsible father. And the question Tom wanted to ask mom was “ Will daddy turn up home early at least this Christmas mom? “ And yes… Tom never wanted to stay home and every year when Christmas neared things just got worse for Tom. He stopped going to school & there weren’t any responsible relative to bother about him- while his dad spent most of his time in his office which was literally shut down. He was growing up- every Christmas was haunting him with the memory of his lost Mother. She was a very wonderful person & losing her was the worst that could happen for tom. One December when Tom was 15 he ran away from the house, while Tom’s father hardly noticed his son missing. Tom became a drop out staying in the streets with no one to bother, no one to speak any sweet words. Tom hardly ate food. He dint take the bad route to earn or live a life.A 15 year old boy in the streets, can things get any worse. One stage tom fell into the bad hands, he started to smuggle. He smuggled goods & started selling drugs for very cheap profit. But Tom never used it- for he was not a kid who was desperate to get addicted to something that could kill his life. Tom did it for those who could not live without it. Yet , so guilty & annoyed with himself. A few number of times Tom did go to prison for suspicion, but every time he escaped- he was found not guilty. Tom was lucky enough.

One day while Tom was walking with the HUGE CASH that he had earned that day the wrong way in a deserted street– where smuggling was the prime activity, Tom heard some one crying in pain & yelling for help. Tom ran around and finally saw a young lady lying on the floor in a pool of blood. Tom looked around- no one was there. And he saw the eyes of the lady- with so much pain, so much of anxiety – she spoke “Please don’t leave me & go. Am very scared- I know am dying. But do notleave me alone while I pass away! It is awful to die this way- I need some one to talk to SHE SAID “
Tom said “Ma’m, let me go get some help. I could get you to the hospital. I shall go get some help! “
She said “ I know I wont survive this- I could tell you for sure I shall die in another 5 minutes. So please stay with me & listen to me. “
Tome went near to her and knelt down took her in his arms & held her hands tight and said “Ma’m I am Tom.Say what you want me to hear. “
She spoke “ I am Sara, the daughter of the richest man in this city- The business man who owns that Book shop in the corner of the street. I love my Dad & Mom. I had no complain with my life. But with so much money & a number of rich friends who dint know how to spend the money- I ended up in drugs. I am not an addict. But I did use drugs for the pleasure of using it. Yeah – I know you think what a cheap girl at this age would use drugs- just for the sake of pleasure. My Mom & Dad they just do not have enough time for me. They were always busy with their lives. I do not complain they do not love me- but dint quite well express it. And they are not aware of me using drugs. Am going to tell you something & you are the first person am going to confess this to, and unfortunately the last one too. So if you could pass it on to the right person & only the right person please do so. I have this family friend- his name is Sam. Sam and I were real great buddies from my kinder garden. And every time Sam did something sweet – I always wanted to tell him that I really like him. But for some issue – I always used to pick fights with him. I took too much advantage of his sweetness. Yet never has he yelled back at me nor has he stopped talking to me or take care of me. I never realized what a special person I had right next to me- and yet never realized he was special. What a fool had I been? When ever tom spoke of his worries- I never really cared or even took notice of, but had always used to end it saying “ Ok Sam, you will get over with it.” But yet never really felt what he was going through or tried to comfort him. But Sam was such a gentle man he always tried to manage with a smile.”
By this time, Tom noticed her struggle to breathe. And Tom very well understood it was the time.
She struggled and continued “ Well Tom, I was lucky enough to get you here today & it was very kind of you to stay with me and listen to me. I would like you to tell Sam that i really loved from our high school days & I still love him. I had just been a fool & like my parents- forgot to express my love – the right time – to the right person & the right way. Tell Sam that I love him more than anyone & the day he bought me those Red roses- I wanted to tell him that I love him. But did not for the my EGO dint let me. Will you do it for me Tom, will you tell Sam? Just this… “ And gently another wonderful soul passed away – right in front of Tom’s eyes.
In another few minutes- when it was 12:00 am - Tom was arrested on the spot by the police officer who came for patrol through that route. Tom wished that the officer had arrived earlier & they could have attempted to save her. But things just got worse when Tom was taken to the station. Tom with the BIG MONEY in rugged clothes – was suspected for getting the money to kill the richest man’s daughter. Tom tried to explain, he tried saying it was the money he got through selling drugs. But the police wouldn’t listen to him- for when he was suspected for the same crime earlier – Tom very well got away with the image he could not have done this. And that time Tom acted really well, that police confirmed it was the money he got for killing Sara. Tom dint have any explanation- that could convince the police. And Tom who hated living- and was waiting to die & hated to commit suicide decided to take this bravely. The case went on & Tom was to be hung dead on 26th December. Tom spent a few days in the jail, until 26th December. He was given a regular visit by one of the NUN’S from a church on humanitarian basis, as the boy dint record anyone as relative. Tom initially said he doesn’t want to see any one. But after his first meet – he changed his mind. The NUN resembled his MOM; she looked so much like the same Angel. So Tom did speak with her & they had been having a real good time chatting for days. They had grown great friends in matter of days. One day the NUN asked tom “ Tom, Are you happy here in the jail? “ And Tom said “ Had never felt better – with people here who love you so much & the times when we all sit together for meal. The chats! The games we all play. And the love & affection we share- knowing we are not going to be there for each other always- it is all special & it is the first time I am experiencing so much of care after my mom’s death.” Then the NUN asked” Tom I do not think you are such a cruel person to murder someone for money sake. Honestly,did you kill Sara? “

THE TESTIMONY!
Tom said ” Sister!! I want to tell you this & i don't want you to try doing anything about the judgement.I did not kill Sara!” And then he narrated what happened that night. Then he requested that he sees Sam, just once before his execution. And the NUN did ask Tom if she could try convincing them and request for his release. But Tom refused & said” I enjoyed my life here with these wonderful people(The inmates) during this Imprisonment period . And I got all the attention I wanted. I happened to meet you & I did chat so much with you. Sometimes I felt the same way I used to while I was having a great chat with my Mom. And I was not earning for my living the right way. I had indirectly been killing lives slowly- though not directly but through the drugs I sold. And the reason Sara came there that day was because of some one like me – who sells drugs & it so happened she was killed by some rouge that day. And she made my life meaningful by serving the purpose to tell you & the world about things we should value in life and not complain. Through me she has made a point about the fact – Do not postpone loving for it may be too late. And value what you have in your life. And I shall die peacefully now- for it is payback time. I must payback for what I had been doing these days. And the man who killed Sara shall know about this- and his guilt shall not leave him free. I hope all our lives are a good lesson for those to come. I should have been a supportive son when my father broke after my mother’s death. But I was too selfish I could not stay back to comfort him , but run away for my own living & live a life that only started to slowly kill more slowly. What was my purpose of life? Other than help Sara- die with someone comforting her morally.And the worst thing that could happen for someone is to be alone while dying & yet you have so much to tell the loved ones- Things that you forgot or neglected.”

The next day – a meeting with Sam was arranged & Tom spoke to Sam for an hour & Sam came out of the room with tears in his eyes. Tears that said “ I was late too!! ”
December 25th- the night that Tom hated every year after his mothers death. This year it was special- special for of course his last night- his last Christmas- his last day-his last Christmas feast- his last day to smile & thank god for his life. And unlike the previous years- Tom was celebrating with a bunch of lovely people 7 yes of course the NUN. She was there with the pudding & chocolate cake that was specially made for Tom. That’s was the last & happiest day in tom’s life.

Now we all have some lesson learnt from his story. We may be any of the character in this narration & yet we are all human beings with some grudge or complain about our life. But what we all forget to see- is What we actually have! And we forget to live with what we got , but are always fond of complaining about what we do not have. Those who have money – may not have happiness (Like the divorcee - business man). Those who have happiness in their life- may not have the money (The happy family of the cobbler in the corner of the street) . But those who appreciate what they have & realize what they have-that someone else do not have & is longing for, are the one’s who are successful in life. They may not necessarily have a great number as their banks balance yet a huge amount of contended ness in their heart & soul. They are the one’s who has actually LIVED the life GIFTED to them. A GIFT THAT IS RARELY APPRECIATED! While there are those who keep complaining about the expensive pink lipstick they could not buy- there are few others too who are struggling for a piece of bread that their lips had not touched for days! After all , we all have have one life & everysecond we have in our life is live only once.We are all living with people around- so do not be too calculative 7 manipulative with your talk or action. Just be yourself !! And try to put up a smile on someones face atleast, if not all! We shall not foregt that! And try to appreciate what you have, whom you have, the way you live. Sometimes, there may be tjose hwo had forgotten these- now that you are reminded- you shall not commit any of the mistakes for which you shall regret later! I wish you all a merry christmas & a very very happy & colourful new year!! Well is it not too early you may ask... but remember- it is better than late! :) I shall wish you all once again- Cheer up!


NOTE: This story is a part of a book that shall soon be published.And yes the author shall be - Marutham!