5.11.07

Do not Neglect the mirror!


This is just the preview..#8 page long story would b published later.

A mirror speaks!

I’m here on one of my boring days. Why? Because no one here looks at me since little ILAYA left to her boarding school. And it seems like they may not have me here anymore. So am once again out of a home to go to a new place. While am resting here to be carried away, I am reminded about the last time I was in a shop where there were a number of mirror friends.We speak very often about our experiences in different places.Here is something that usually happens between us & you.

- People, they generally come towards us & want to see the best. Sometimes they do get annoyed & walk away angrily- as if we had done a blunder by not reflecting the way they wanted to look. It is those times I wish I knew magic. But not to forget - SOME OF THEM WOULD GIVE US FLYING KISS TOO at times-Rarely ;)

- Babies keep coming to us; sometimes keep looking at us for hours. Sometimes they keep smiling & chuckles when they see us reflect their beautiful smile. Ahh… I can spend a whole life reflecting their beautiful emotions.

- Pet cats & dogs playing around unless they are tired or carried away.Hehe.. I just love to see the way they keep scratching us.

- Gorgeous girls ;) standing for hours & the way they apply the so called make-up over an over again to only spoil their natural beauty. SIGH* I WISH I COULD TELL AT LEAST ONE OF THEM- Come on stop now! You look just great. Don’t apply that thing anymore.

- Handsome boys trimming their mustaches. LOL! Some amateurs just don’t understand the word “Symmetry”. Glad I don’t have a mustache.<>

- Expecting mothers – First timers especially, trying in fact struggling to fit in their old clothes. Hahaa… You should see their emotions, so very rare & unique! Even they themselves will not be able to see that again.

I Shall tell you later about the stories my friends have told me. But I do have few points to tell you from my experiences & my friend’s.Well, don't get offended by anything said here , won't you understand & cope when your friend says something that you do not like.

#I have seen many people complain about the looks. Well, you humans are all beautiful in your own ways. Each of you has a face which is your unique to be identified (unless you have a twin). There is nothing for you to complain about. There was no reference given to create you. Each one of you are unique. And there is no one pretty and no one awful with looks. Every person is a new doll we see.

#Each of you are unique & beautiful to us. Unlike us! What shape can I tell I have, what colour would I say Iam. Does Messy have long hair, or Silent have a big mouth? Does Ms.Antique have a sharp nose? Can I answer that, can u? No! We do not have an identity like you. You have been lucky to be what you are. And I feel the same way too! We are what you are. A happy person in front of us makes us happy too. We smile. We reflect your smile. Every complaining look makes us do the same. When you look at the mirror do not expect – just observe & do not fail to see what you see.

#Looking at the mirror is good, for many reasons. You know how you look & how you must cope to be your best. Imagine a person who never looks at the mirror, do you think he will have any idea about when to trim his mush or when to shave? He would grow barbaric, won’t he?

Fat people would realize how rapidly they are putting on weight, they may control their diet accordingly if they note the change. I have heard a wise woman say “Your body is your first doctor, it never fails to tell you what is happening inside.It never fails to warn you. Only that we fail to pick up its signal sometimes”

# We help you groom yourself. Sometimes the greatest way to practice your speech or presentation is by standing in front of the mirror & practicing your speech. There is no one better than yourself to note what the mistakes are & accordingly you can make the changes. May it be the way you stand or the body language, we are there to help you help yourself.

#Dressing!! For heaven’s sake, please wear clothes that look good on YOU. Never see someone else look very pretty in some of the dress & try them out blindly. Trust me! An elephant looking huge may be a stunning sight, but a lion would look majestic only in its own size. Can you imagine a bunny in the size of a hippopotamus? You would run screaming, won’t you?

Then why scare us & the rest?

I wish I could personally call you or at least scream & cry when you wear a silly dress that is NOT made for you. But we cannot, we are only designed to reflect & we do not try that may be nice for a human but not for us. Whenever you wear a dress (definitely when it’s the first time), take ample time to check if the dress covers you properly & doesn’t look awkward or funny by looking at your reflection from all sides. If you haven’t got a bigger mirror, do ask people in your house. For I have seen the way some people look good when observed from the front side but not so from another angle. And if you are asked about the dress, do not try to be modest & lie that it looks good when it doesn’t. It is better to let your loved one know that “It looks pathetic” than to see them cry for someone had said something about it at work or outside home.

# And what not….. Spare a smile when your day starts. Do smile at us , for there is always the most beautiful face waiting to smile back at you. Never complain about your face – it looks great for it is unique.

With that note I shall now get back to the waiting… I never know whom I would meet. I may land up in your home next to tell the people what you have taught me, through my next story!

Come on! Smile – I would like to do that when I leave you. That’s Nice!

How was my smile? ;)


Lastly “Never neglect the mirror!”

8.10.07

Pesugiren pesugiren ....


Lost/Dead/Quit/Disturbed/Sick/Sad???

If you were clicking any of the above reason for my absence :D am sorry, you are wrong.

Sorry for not informing & sorry for being very irresponsible.

So for that reason I have a special track uploaded for the friends here. Before I forget- MISSED YOU ALL SO MUCH!!


For all the delay from my side am uploading three songs this time :)

Corrs Heart like wheel- Dialup
Corrs Heart like wheel- BB

Pesugiren Pesugiren-Dialup
Pesugiren Pesugiren-BB

Surprise Try hearing -Dialup
Surprise Try hearing -BB



And yes- finally after hearing many friends recommend - am into flickr .

Here is my flickr page- Click to view my pics.

The feeling that someone remembers you – is the best. Especially when they get mad at you …. You have every right to express your anger. J And thanks a TON :D for those many of you who have taken the pain to express it thro the angry offensive emails :P Kidding… they were real sweet mails. I am very glad I have such wonderful friends around. THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE. And not to forget the new friends who had visited the page Naveen, Sudhakar, MM, Dhil d Desperado and one of them MM & rsubras had returned to read the next post too :) .

Writers block..??? :P NO WAY!

I have the Anti-Writers block . For I have too many things that I wanted to write about.

JULY# about Since this could probably be the longest vacation for us- Me & Sis decided to ask mom to take a break & visit few relatives with my cousin as Dad was busy. So I was in charge, enjoyed Cooking, the household work & did some rearrangements too. I utilized this time to do all those challenging works which mom wud never let me do if she was around. One of which includes soaping the tiles in kitchen and cleaning them (You should have seen them SHINE! ;) ). The kitchen seems to love the makeover: P & so did our family. All these kept me tight. Then mom returned & we were busy with the house shifting formalities

FRIENDSHIPDAY: IT WAS TOO SPECIAL> Yes other than the present friends calling & wishing. There were couple of calls whose voice I could not recognize but they seem to know a lot about me & family. There were few name calling from some girls & then the boys distracted by still listing details about me. At one point I was gonna pull all my hair out of my head & run for I WANTED TO KNOW WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE bullying me with so much of love :) Yes! They did reveal their identity – the boys & girls who had shared the same class room with me. Was lucky enough to get to hear the voice of more than 10 of my 1st standard- YES CLASS 1 friends. We were all out of touch for more than 17 years. But thro t contact with 2 friends – all the rest were able to trace out & they called up & wished. We were all on conference call & I totally enjoyed it. Could tell my friends almost all that had happened that time & I was the one who remembered many events. We all had a loud laugh & most of the friends were surprised to see me remember all of them & infact some of them told- “ You have not changed a bit. I could already see your sunshine smile & that kiddo face. NOT A CHANGE – only have grown sweeter. Am glad you are still the same girl we knew then. “

So were they- entire bunch was terribly sweet & it was like I got back an old treasure. Class 1 friends :D who wouldn’t feel that way!!!

AUG - SEP # First and the foremost…. My brother’s visit. He had come down from USA with his family & having been on vacation for the very first time during his visit it was great this time. After many years the 3 of us- me , bro & my sis we had lotta time to talk–bully-prank-tease-walk-laugh-feel happy-feel sad- ‘what not’ together. Trust me or not- we were chatting all night for the first few weeks of his arrival (One of the night we 3 had oatmeal at mid-night went chatting all the time to see appa wake up at 5 the next day morning and wish us good morning!!) that I caught up a soar throat & it hasn’t bid goodbye to me yet. My throat is so deep in trouble :P

And how can I forget mentioning about the GREAT time me & my MAAPS (maplai- My bro’s kid) had. Oooooooooooo I miss him so very much. There was not a day I woke up seeing someone else’s face but his, there was not a day I missed playing with him-chatting- watching TV(Yes ofcourse we have many things in commonone of which seem to be DISNEY channel) -laughing-eating-walking- and what not!! I can write a whole book about the time we both had- occasionally joined by the grownups :P my bro & Sis. I love him a lot & I miss him a lot. During his last visit I had taught him to show “I LOVE YOU” in sign language. And he seem to remember most of the things we used to do together during his previous visit which was probably a year back. This time he had often been showing the “I love you” to me & I used to do the same.

SOBS*SOBS*… Far across the distance The day he left I was so totally bugged that he was gonna leave. But that night he promised :) that he would get back in the 10th of OCT (Wonder what that little head had thought to say that. I understood that he is gonna miss us the same way we all do from what he had said.) And I was preparing myself NOT TO CRY. I have told this a few times in my blog- I hate CRYING & crying in front of someone is SO NOT WHAT I COULD POSSIBLY SEE MYSELF DO. And the whole evening the rude inner voice was telling me “ No maruthu – Don’t u dare cry!...Never cry!!”

That night myself & Dad went to drop them at the airport & I enjoyed the ride , with my kutty maaps sitting on my lap. Dad & I browsed some of the books in the Higginbothams during the waiting time – and I never wanted any of the books from there. Appa did buy couple of books & then we came to the waiting area once anna was done with formalities. I avoided chatting with my maps after entering the airport since I was not strong enough to hide my feelings & I was not confident enough to BE STRONG/ACT STRONG.Only once did I talk to him during the waiting time- that when I asked him if he was sleepy & gave him a candy to chew on. When we were going to say bye – the little Vaalu did the “I love u” in sign language to me with a broad smile……..

Azhugai?? Ayyahooooo!! Enna oru izhukku…

ARRRRRRRRRRRRR- What more do u need to melt an aunts heart??? And he needs nothing but simply a smile to melt my heart away. CRAP! I had lost control & started crying….

(ASINGAMMMMM – U r crying in public!!!!!!!!! Suthi irundhavanga elaam thirumbi parthutangayyyyyaaaaaaaaa!!! Cha shame shame pupppppy shame’a pochu…. But athai manam thangalayee—ini naan yara thookuven- yaru enaku kana pinanu mutham tharuva-yaaru en kitta kadha kepa-- yaar en kita adam panuvaanga yaaru kooda naan crayons elam vechu colour panuven- yaaru enna pada soli adam panuva - yaar ena oru nal vidama anba vandhu ezhupuva?????- LOT MORE…. Azhudhadhu vekama poi naan appa pinadi poi oliya try pani “polaampa please’nu “ sonadhu nenacha – ippa kooda enaku siripa iruku!!! Che- puppy shame puppy shame)

Anna was surprised-shocked-puzzled-funny I dnt know what – at that state I could only understand he dint expect me cry. I never easily express my feeling by crying- I may be cry only when am all alone but never in front of someone else. He WAS SURPRISED! He carried maps & told him to give me a big hug & kiss.(Sari’nu vitangalaaa??? Avana thookiktu – andha thadupa thaandi neetiktu ena kita vara solli “ Athaiku oru big hug & kiss kudu” Namaku azhugai – odanju pona TAP’lerndhu thani vara mari aramichachu… I couldn’t control…idhula ivan vera kati puduchu mutham kuduthutaanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa….. Ambutu dhaan- I COULDN’T STOP – Tears went rolling – I kissed him tight saying “ Am gonna miss you sooo much!”) And appa tried to comfort me – but the only option for me was “ TURN BACK & RUNNNNNNNNNNNN”

Finally appa decided to get me out of the airport (or should I say out of embarrassment). The drive back home was not very joyful to me and appa was too sweet to desperately keep trying to make me talk. He started talking many topics that could divert me from -but nothing did. Alright change the topiccccccccc…..

I have recorded a couple of songs that I haven’t uploaded until today. They gotta be more than a month old now. One of the song was suggested by our friend – well-wisher CVR . When I first heard the track I told him :p “NO WAY! I can never sound like THAT!!” She was too good a singer– song from CORRS. And I heard the song over and over – through out the night ( yes while I was reading the novel which I love the most , I can read it over and over again- DOCTORS) and tried singing it the next day. It seems to come out well. May be not :P ! U gotta decide that.

And the other song which I happened to hear even before the movie was released is the “Pesugiren …” track from Sattham podadhey.

And Apologizing for disappearing – I got the special song where I have done something which I HAVE NOT DONE IN ANY OF MY PREVIOUS TRACKS. Sorry song ;)

And you can view some of the pictures that I clicked during the small trip we had last week. Mom,Dad, Sis & me… we all had a great time. We had traveled through thro 3 districts. Thiruvanaikkal in trichy was the best. There we have a shiva lingam At the foot of the Shiva lingam- cauvery water is found through out the year, and we did get a glimpse of that. And Sreerangam & Thiruvanaikkal happens to be in the middle of the place where the cauvery diverges into two and then joins later. We had our uncle & appa’s friend join us for the thiruvanaikkal trip.I will leave you with that. Will come back with something interesting the newt time.

Love,
Maruthu…



PS: Pesugiren pesugiren Lyrics was extra ordinary & without knowing that it is from the movie Satham podadhey & song by viva girls it took me a lot of time to find the lyrics. Could find many pages for Pesugiren pesugiren free mp3 download. I have no clue about the movie - i only liked the song.

27.7.07

MEDIA Culture - growing Uncultured.

Here is my version of the song I'll stand by you. Not a great song. But loved it especially by one of the performers in American idol. Reminded me of the tamil song " Kangalil enna eerama? Nenjinil enna baarama?"
To hear the song please click on the appropriate links given below,
I'll stand by you - For Dial up users
I'll stand by you -For BB users


Now, coming to the post :)
MEDIA Culture - Growing Uncultured.
Last week was excellent for We in our family did get some time to spend with together & it was Quality time ;). TOUCH WOOD. On Sunday morning while I was browsing through the news paper, I came across the TV programme column and this idea to watch a movie together with family struck me. And my eyes fell upon one movie that was joked alot about during the college days, starring one of the heroes from the movie boyz(which i have not seen yet- never will see too.)

I was told it is an ADULTS only movie. So I rechecked the timing- it was the evening movie!!

DUH!!!

Are people losing sense these days?? Don’t we get to watch a decent movie ATLEAST on weekends??On a Sunday evening..come on! There got to be a mistake! But nope, that was the movie played that evening & we ended up watching a different show.

Its time Tamil channels also better start to have the U,U/G,A notifications while playing movies- the trend that Star movies follow really well.


MOVIES-
These days they are playing adult(e)rated movies on channels that are supposed to be showing family entertainment movies. It is the responsibility of the parents to make sure kids are watching good programs only. Sometime back(a couple of times) they did play the movie Boyz on Sunday & on a festive day. This movie is not a good choice for kids to watch. Does it mean this generation is taking everything for granted? Those who chose to telecast these- are they trying to take any revenge- probably a childhood problem? Is there even someone in the censor board who do some WORK AT ALL? People who telecast -Don’t they have any idea about the fact that people sit with family; mainly that children watch these?

These days most of them in the movie industry do not seem to realize the responsibility & that is one reason am so against people going crazy over those who don’t even realize the fact that they are spoiling & corrupting young minds.

Not just hero’s, but the heroines too.I accept that the competition is too much for these girls these days to get an offer, because the directors have lost sense about on what basis one should be chosen to act as heroine. And that has brought in a lot of junks inside the industry, which once had heroines like ….. (am only getting the picture of black & white movies’s! :O yes ofcourse….There are decent one’s in later years too..) Revathy, Suhasni….. And a FEW more.

These days the need for a glamour artist exclusively is cut down. Lucky directors! May be that’s one reason they don’t mind about getting cheap girls (No offence- girls who come in at cheap rates to act) to act as heroine. They don’t care about the kind of moves they are asked to do in a dance & the costumes for the dance & sometimes the dance itself actually has no role in that scene or the following one. Best example in that category is - in the movie Rhythm(Not a bad movie though :P )When the kid is enjoying the rain at night in the terrace there is this song Ayyo pathikuchu…pathikuchu… And I went like. “Did I by mistake change the channel or something?” From no where people start dancing in the stage & the kid who was supposed to be in bed sleeping is there in the podium sitting watching the dance. Apdiye potaalum..ippo mazhai ila peyudhu..edhuku indha ponnu pathikuchunu koovings?? Kodumai !?!

Our tamil industry hero’s are not exceptional- they are ok with any silly mannerisms & some stupid dialogues that do have double meaning. Vulgar dialogues(Sombu movies), rubbish gestures(Poriki – yaaradhu pokiri’nu padikrahdu??....i meant porikki seyra velaigal), Horrible onscreen behaviour , NOTHING-BUT RUBBISH. I can understand if they are trying to screen a bad guy turn good guy. In that case if hero’s act as how villains would, its fine. But they are imposing on us to accept the hero be that way through out the movie – that is being the actual personality- the hero do stupid things , tease girls, do all rubbish, Behave like an absolute Idiot , Speak filthy language, Dress indecent, still more to list….YUKK!The very thought that these are the guys – today’s young generation is going crazy over annoys me, ire me & worry me!

What are they to be celebrated as great heroes for?? Instead they can go for a Mr.Bean or say vivek rasigar mandram & have a huge cut out for him (Come on – give the guy some credit, if you can take these morons as HERO! He atleast puts a smile &even make you laugh! He has a huge fan club :D Lets not pull him here…..)

My only question is why all these hype for SOME GUY who do not even care about what he is corrupting the young minds with? Certain things cannot be undone & corrupting young minds is one! Well, the language~ Dialogue- acting- dance- ….in the name of this, these guys do all funny awkward things & they are accepted by a huge crowd. To be frank not just accepted but celebrated too!

In a crowd where everyone is a fool but one man who may differ in the idea may be looked upon as an idiot, that doesn’t leave him with option to act a fool. But that is what is happening today! Even those who do understand this, act stupid – they just want to move with the crowd. So they also join the bajan! Although they know that this guy is absolute curse for the culture!

Name just any movie – any actor - any thing. They go HOOGAA HOOGAA!

If it’s the TOSS…”hey macha Toss superdaa..Naan first day first show parthen da.nee?”

Or PORIKI-…”Dey PORIKI…enna padam da… Namma vaal/mooku/kannu enama nadichrukaar pathiya. Kovil dhaan”

Or FREEDOM-… “Freedom! Summa top gear’la odudhula padam. 3 dhadava pathuten dee!”

I have no personal aversion towards any one in the movie industry. But I do respect people who act with SOME DIGNITY & RESPONSIBILITY, which is like....very rare now. Thanks to people with some dignity like ;) aravind swamy who has gently withdrawn from this rat race.

If and only if the directors, script writers, lyricist & actors (well they can choose what not to do atleast!) act more responsible, things will get any better. Otherwise we may be leading the future to grow numb to such non-sense. Simply by repeatedly getting us used to see such non-sense they are trying to impose & make us take it as sense. But non-sense is always going to be that. And we must not forget it.

We are able to understand that the media is not actually bothered about what to play, when to play & movie makers too forget what SENSE is. If we are paying Rs 50 for a drink & there a sip of drainage in it we cannot ignore it. Will you? So is the case when they make movies. They should rate them properly- HONESTLY! And those who telecast them in TV should know what to play when. Its alright when you have any non-sense in an adult rated movie. But they keep giving us non-sense in those that the younger generation watch and try to get the idea that THIS IS NOT WRONG, when it is absolute CRAP! Individual has to be responsible. Its each one’s responsibility to know what is right and wrong. But it would be better if these people in the media act responsible too.

The present TV culture is spoiling kids. The programs where kids are asked to call the VJ’s to have a chit chat with shows how far it has gone. Sometimes watching kids speak I that show, really would make you feel dizzy. They are so much spoiled by the media.

NOTE TO THE PARENTS:

# Know what your kid is watching.

# Suggest the shows that are suitable for them to watch.

#Encourage them to go outside & play. Trust me, it is better than watching the stupid box.

#Channels like Discovery, National geography,History channel can also be fun.Do find out programs that could interest your kid in the junior time.Of course Disney,pogo,CN,Nickelodeon,...goes without saying. :)

# It is better not to watch certain shows with kids around. I do not imply late night shows, but today – yes the shows that really do have some not-for-kids stuff. That also includes some of the songs – in the music channels.

#Never hesitate to tell your kid that – "This is not what it is, these are buffoon in the movies that act this way simply to make money. In real world people do not talk or behave this way. If they do so they will be looked upon as nothing but fools."

# Do tell them that- it is only an entertainer and not a preacher.

# When you see your kid imitate any of the acts/dialogue's/song that are not appropriate for kids (seena thaan too)- stop the kid right there & tell that it is Wrong & not to follow or imitate these. It may be entertaining & amusing for you to see your child imitate but it is never good. This could in fact encourage the child to create a passion towards such things.

# Do get some good videos , nice movies and ask your kid to watch it, you can join him too and make the time a pleasant memorable time.

# Encourage the kids to get involved in creative works than watch TV. These days the cable channels do not have nothing big left for the kids to learn from. They are out of good stuff. Only rarely do you find something nice & do watch it with them.

# Try to make your kid understand what may be suitable to watch & what not in your absence too. Encourage the kid being responsible by reward-punishment method. Punish doesn’t mean spanking the kid :)

Let them grow healthy…. Healthy mind is necessary for a healthy body.

Growing up cultured is even more important!

All that I have shared in this post are my personal views. They are not intended to offend any one. Thavarai meendum meendum seivadhanaal, adhu sari endru aagi vidaadhu! Adhanai pondradhey idhu - indraya thiraipada kalachaaram.

10.7.07

Tags 2 & 3 and "Uppu kallu" song-My version


Back with the remaining two tags :D
TAG 1 - Here
TAG 2 & 3 follow ....

~~~~~~~~#8 Tag #~~~~~~~~
Tag 2 - #8 Tag

GOPS Tagged me on this. Here is what the tag is about. Rules follow,

- You are supposed to write 8 facts about you.

- You are to tag eight more people

- You should tell them that they are tagged & they are supposed to follow these rules.

Well, I am planning to write “#8 Facts” that most of you may not know about me.Good things about TAG! Before I start writing my tag I wanted to share this piece of information about tags. They are my opinion & u may differ with it .(I really don’t care so don’t bother to complain about the idea. No offence - sometimes its better i disclaim before i hear from .... other than my friends)

Tags are like social party- they help us get to know our friends & they create a warmth around the blogsphere. Sometimes it helps you remind that YOU ARE NOT ALONE –JOBLESS. There are other such people around you too. ~~~KIDDING!!! ~~~ Tags really help you do THE THING! They help you do a self analysis which is most important in anyone’s life to be the better you. These tags help you know your tick marks & Cross marks. They infact help you mend yourself & again – u may differ in this view & i… :P Well go on u can spill it out. I still got lot more to write…But I should start of with the tag or there may be someone who hardly comes in here to read but always complains something or the other about the page. Again - IDC!

#8 Facts…

You may not know these facts about me :P but promise you wudn’t run away from my blog but return again :D heheee….

1) DANCE – Well, I was so crazy about dancing during my school days. No no.. dnt imagine Jim carey dancing..i wasn’t bad. I have bagged some prizes for the dancing – including winner cup in “THILLANA THILLANA”- THE ONCE POPULAR TV SHOW (Sun tv) But I stopped dancing after certain age in order to concentrate in studies :P(STOP LAUGHING) & to have a family that is proud to have you ! :P

2) KIDS – I just love kids. That doesn’t mean they can mess around. I take either extremes with kids. When they are well behaved – the most love would be from my side & when they are misbehaving – I would the first one in scene to STOP them being that way. And I guess they understand its for their good :) – they do come back to me with all smiles after the disciplining session is over.

3) NEAT & NICE: I want the things around me to be nice & neat. Sometimes am too picky. Dress- food- Colours in ur curtain.. name it. They need not be very expensive but they HAVE TO BE NICE & NEAT to look at, b’coz It automatically puts a smile on your face. (That doesn’t guarantee a clean room my friend. My room can sometimes be as messy as it can)

4) Cooking: Ahh…. Most interesting place. When I cook I dnt stick to the rules. I make my own dish. I hardly follow the routine technique. And No talking in kitchen, No thoughts abt anything but cooking, NO ‘NOT RELATED TO COOKING’, Definitely there can be singing ;). And TRUST ME! Every time I follow this when I cook. There has never been a FLOP DISH in my kitchen chemistry. (To me Cooking is chemistry!)

5) Stage: Stage had always been special in my academic life,may it be school days or college. I was always there performing dance or singing or name it… in all the events until my middle school. During High school days I was the secretary and offlate most of the times escaped from singing or dancing. Once special time I never can forget is when I was asked to compere our house’s(TEAM) event. During the rehearsals I knew it was gonna suck big. The singers were too squeaky & the dancers were off the beat. After stopping my stage appearances as an entertainer – I dint want to get back there in that suit. I was either an orator or the secretary or announcing or simply with the Choir group or as sports person/Team. I still remember the time how I pulled it off through the event. IT WAS DIFFICULT TO LIE WITH A SMILE – CALLING IT A BEAUTIFUL PERFORMANCE WHEN YOU KNEW IT SUCKED TOTALLY! It was then I thought may be I should have done some piece myself. But it was fun to laugh it off after the show in the dressing room with the house mates and later with the class mates. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the 4 year= 8 semesters of college never have the staffs forgotten to ask me 2 take a seminar- not even one semester. The news just kept spreading. Whenever I was asked to present in the class room seminar – I would try to come up with a lie –“Sir, am not very good. Excuse me this time….”There would be the answer “Don’t lie Maruthu :) I have heard in our staff room. There is a news that you are a born teacher. You already have one in the other subjects why do you not take one in my subject? …” It always ended up me saying a YES! I loved teaching One thing about seminars is – the 60+ friends were sometimes too over joyed that they would keep annoying you, which came down to some extent after the 2nd year.

6) Cartoons : Love them anytime all time. And living without watching cartoon is so not possible. The time I had been to mysore & there watching tv that had no cartoon channels was TERRIBLE! Seriously… For more than a week without Cartoons inspite of having a tv that had cable connection would be like how a drug addict would feel without the drugs for the first few days. Even during exams I used to watch atleast one show for the day.

7) Sense of humor: Close circle of people would know that. I have a strange sense of humor. I cannot control laughing the moment the joke strikes in my headSometimes during the class hours too- my super brain would relate to something very hilarious or terrific funny imagination – that would trigger my laughter which can get really loud. Sometimes I would not be able to control it- but laugh out too loud during a lecture. . I would get terribly funny with my jokes. Walking with friends- happen to see something & my imagination would get WILD>.. and I remember the times my sis would literally go begging to stop joking becoz her stomach hurts laughing. Few friends have also mentioned about my sudden out burst of laughter during class lectures (Very few no.of.times) & has questioned why? Because am a very sincere silent student!

8) Turtle – Lion principle.

I live by my principles & sometimes I stick to them so firm, there is no second thought about my decision. At times am as adjusting & tolerate very much. I am compromising & calm as much as a turtle. But at times when it comes to my loved one’s (or even my most sensitive issue) am as furious as a lion. I canot tolerate anyone messing with someone I love so much. They may not react but I would be first one in field to fight the war! And they would go like “ Was that YOU?? That was unbelievable. Why?.... ”Deep down inside they would have that joy & smile that pops which only would happen when they understood you totally. To look back even I would go “Was that me…PHEW!”

EXTRA- NEVER’s in my life - Circus show, Movie Theatre (Not even during college days- TRUST ME!) , Fire Crackers ……. NEVER WILL THEY BE!

NOTE: Notice the pic up there?? In memory of John Ritter who passed away in 2003 Sep 11. I love this show a lot & he is missing around in later episodes. It is really sad that he is missing. I did a little editing on the pic on a BORING DAY! Do u recognize what the serial is ??
Am leaving this as an OPEN tag. Anyone & everyone who comment may please kindly take this up if they are interested ! I shall be glad.

********Thinking blogger award. ********

TAG 3- Thinking blogger award.

Hm.. Our friend Brute passed it on to me.

I now have to pass it to 5 others. I was thinking of people who are not dormant with blogs came to my mind & the 5 categories automatically reminded me few. Choosing those who flashed first are now getting this & they would have to pass it 5 others .

STORY: Direction screen play – editing… NONE OTHER THAN *Harish* ( Big bro)
His king kong returns :P & recently the one on Himesh… :P Hilarious.

POETRY: I classified this to tamil. And there are two people share equal credit
*Dreamz*& *Bharani* ( I rembr t nick- I used to call him kavignarey… )

HUMOR: If there gotto be a funny post anytime all time. There is no exception for his comments too :P None other than * My days Gops!*

PHILANTHROPY: *Balaji*(I am reminded of his comment on my post when I wasn’t able to help the girl in the railways station. He has done some social work too)

GENERAL: Two people came to my mind Srijith & *Nirek*.May it be any important incident you can find a post about it that would really make you think. Since srijith has already got this I would like to pass it on to nirek.

Now they have to tag 5 others under 5 categories ( The categories may not necessarily be the same as I have done.)


Here is my version of the song "Uppu kallu thaneerukku yaekka pattadhu.."

Uppu kallu - Dial up version

Uppu kallu - BB version
After a long time i heard one of Bombay Jayashree's track from the recent/decent movie & fell in love with it after the very first hear !
Mostly because of the feel of the song ,the voice - to top it all ,the way the heroine has brought out the feel in this song with the LOST LOOK in her face :)
There is something very disturbing about this song - the actress or the picturization ..I really do not know how to put it. But the Song is amazing. I wish you hear& WATCH the original track too :)


Well thats all from my side.... :) Its your turn now

26.6.07

Tagged – Sivaji – Uyirum neeye Song!


Tagged – Sivaji REVIEW :p– Uyirum neeye Song!

:P DUH!! You thought I would post a review or something about this movie. NOT FROM ME – Never :P . Looks like the whole world is catching up the SIVAJI FLU!

I wonder why people make all these fuss … Its just another movie. I wonder why sometime people even don’t care if the movie has a good story or should I say STORY AT ALL. I never know. I never will. Coming to what I actually planned to post.

After a pretty long time – I have THREE tags in my hand. HEHEHEHEHE! Now I shall take revenge on my buddies :P by tagging them.Hee hee !!! I will do them one by one

Linking you one of my songs AFTER A LONG TIME :P So stop complaining..i haven’t tortured you all for a while! :P Come on – you can take this! I love this song & My sister too loves this song very much. An infact she is the one who reminded me this song after a long time. She knows ITS MINE- for so many reasons!!!! This song goes out to all the wonderful MOM and TO-BE-MOMS.

My version of Uyirum neeye~~ For Dialup conxn
My version of Uyirum neeye~~ For BB conxn


Ahem :D

Am Back again…This time with a TAG :D

Brute – I will post your tag next! :D Give me a little time.

I am given THE “thinking blogger award” My next post would be on that probably. And after that it would be Gops’ 8 Tag!

Gops – I will post your tag soon. I think I will first ask you and clear about t\what the tag actually is :P neengalum enna mari rule break panirukeenga dhaney :P heehee

Some times back -I have been tagged by Vishesh. The tag is on the book am currently reading.

I just love tags , vishesh & thank you very much for tagging :) and do accept my apologies for posting it very late. There was friendly reminder from “a little light”

With no further delay I am posting the tag here :)

The rules of this tag are:
1. Name the person who tagged you with a link to his/her blog.
2. Describe what you are asked to do - in this case, publish the 5th paragraph of page 123 of the book you are currently reading. (If the page does not have a 5th paragraph, take the last paragraph. And if the book doesn’t have page 123, take the last page.)
3. Tag five people

#1- have done that. Vishesh tagged me :)

#2 – Ok the book that am currently reading….U mean right now?Hm… I was reading “The Chicken Soup for the Woman’s soul” It is really like a SOUP – I sometimes blindly take up some page & RE-read things I have already read. For those of you who know about the Chicken soup series – I need not explain what the book is all about.

Ahem…This is not a recipe book :D and I am a vegetarian. And for those of you who have already started saying “Uff…not another girlie book “

It has great series & you must give it a try.

Yaaru ba adhu …Maruthu enna soup book elaam padika aramichtaanga- Samayal’la erangitangalonu kekradhu?? :P Book peru dhaan Soup – The only has recipes on happy living :)

WHY?? The reason why the book has this name. The name "Chicken Soup" was chosen for this series because of the use of chicken soup as a home remedy for the sick..

Well it is basically like a collection of what people have to say on the topics– it could be about marriage, love, kids, Attitude, Ageing, Special moments ..what not. They have list of topics that has pages on Stories, Real life incidents, Poems, Cartoons too….most importantly it motivates you.

My suggestion is you could try..

Chicken Soup

#For the Soul - Chicken Soup for the Soul is a series of books, usually featuring a collection of short, inspirational stories and motivational essays.

#For New moms (:P I only read the Chapter titles – while appa was busy searching a particular book from that shelf in the book shop)

#For Sisters (Haven’t read that yet… Could not find one)

#For Father ‘n’ Son

#For Mother ‘n’ Daughter

#For golfers

The list goes on….. Who knows you may even end up finding your name in the cover :P “Chicken Soup for Your name :P

Kidding…. :)

Now coming to the #3 rule ……

Page 123 – yes of course, this book has more than that :P just name/number it

BUT CAN I MAKE A EXCEPTION HERE ? Vishesh – I hope you wouldn’t mind reading something that you will understand :D – Come on Am not a rule breaker -I go by the rules..but I feel quoting the 123rd page’s 5th paragraph would make NO Sense :) to any of my friends here. Would it?

So I thought I would pick out something that is not very long – which you could read -understand & enjoy.

FEW QUOTES from the book , hmmmm…..

  • We are not rich by what we posses but rather by what we can do without.
  • We don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are
  • You don’t get to choose how you are going to die or when. You are left with the choice to decide how you’re going to live. (Loved this one :D )
  • What is right for one soul may not be right for another. It may mean having to stand on your own and do something strange in the eyes of others.

CARTOON AHEM AHEM :P …

I thought I could scan the page – but I did not want to delay – so here I go…

CATHY is on the phone…..

Him: okay, I’ll see u later cathy!

Cathy: LATER as in TONIGH or LATER as in SOMETIME IN THIS LIFE TIME ?

Him:Oh..hahahahah..Give me a call sometime.

Cathy: GIVE YOU A CALL as in YOU RESPECT MY RIGHT TO TAKE THE INITIATIVE or GIVE YOU A CALL as in CALL ONLY WHEN YPU SPECIFICALLY ASK?

Him: You’re a Riot , cathy. Well, ive got to go.

Cathy: I’M A RIOT as in YOU LOVE ME or I’M A RIOT as in WE JUST BROKE UP?

After the phone call is over.

CATHY: Hmm…. Men should come with Instruction booklets ! BLINK BLINK.

More…??Lazy DUMBO :P Just get the book & read :) You wont regret!

Am choosing to randomly tag people who come to my mind when I think about books & posts on that or even who have spoken to me about any book that they read. When you tag – your friends should take up the tag- few of them whom am confident would post it soon are tagged this time….

# Brute

# Gops- Devil

# Jagan

# R Subras

# KK

If your name is left out & you love tags ;) Do let me know.....
I have two more..adhula u will be in!

Hope you enjoyed the tag.
Take care & Cheers!

With love,
Maruthu.

5.6.07

Come with me- lets go on a small ride along the village side….. :D

Come with me- lets go on a small ride along the village side….. :D

First time ever in the history of blogging… :P Blogger’s TOUR.

And first time ever :P am gonna take you on tour. Cha..indha ponnu blog mokkaye thangala..idhu kooda tour pogi uyiroda veedu vandhu servoma’nu doubt irukravanga elaarum – konjam thirupi yosinga :P enna baggy en control – vittu mutta soliduven :P Adhu yaaru baggy? Post’la varuvaanga parunga….

Ok..i thought I would write this post in 2 languages in different styles- For there are friends who are also interested in reading the post in tamil.

Alright now – serious better pack your bags & get ready for the ultimate online tour…And dnt u forget to turn ur speakers on En iniya sagaakkal elaam bayapadradhu theridhu :P Bayapdadheenga..Indha vaati avlova ungala elam koduma pannaa vendaamnu dhaan- naan PADA VILLAI :D It is original track..so FEAR NOT Parda- ippo dhaan speaker on panreengala…Remba BAD :P

PATEESWARAM TEMPLES!

I now cordially request you all to board in the bus. We are gonna take one of the best ECONOMIC tours ever! Elaarum ukandhacha…elai thambi- jannal seat’ku ipdi elaam adichuka koodadhu :P periya bus- neraya seat iruku …Sari adhuku munaadi

Most of the friends who drop in my space are away from home & the rest are here – but really would not get the opportunity I got (Lucky me!) :D- yeah am talking about getting time & place like this to visit. And few of the relatives-some distant relatives too were sweet enough to take us around the fields & places & show us around. And for the first time (VERY FIRST TIME) me & my sister went to the native without the company of appa/amma. And I wanted to feast you! – my lovely friends, lazy sis(Who took rest & missed most of the part in field trip since she was VERY tired!), Amma appa- few other family members, My brother – who is always away from India, and many more people…. With the pictures atleast! :)

I still have too many of them in my hard disk anaal idhu elathayum load panradhukuliye..

SAPAAAAAA IPPOVEY KANNA KATUDHEY dialogue otiyachu :P

But each of the picture can itself have a post on them- because they have a story to tell from my past. I will share a few of the memorable pictures & few unforgettable incidents related to that picture.

Here we go……



The first day was really fantastic- except for the fact that it was too hot. And near neyveli we had a brilliant surprise :D It started raining…

Imagine sitting near the window seat & listening to Netru iladha maatram… Song. Ada indha veyila thanikka ipdi oru super mazhai . Elarukum sandhosama… Window elaam close panadheenga ;) Light’a saral adichutu pogatum. Elarukum paatu ketkudhu dhaney! Driver speaker volume ethunga please …. Netru iladha maatram…

And that day we dint go out anywhere but stayed home. And I just could not wait to goto another close relative’s home that is at a walkable distance from the place where we first went. They have many cows – goats- and a lovely dog there. And not to forget- after the childhood days, I had never been to the fields. Because everytime we go with appa amma- we have no time but to just visit them all & have a chat. Never have I been to the fields again until this time. If I remember it right the last time we went to the fields were during the primary schooling. And chithi used to carry me & cousin used to sarry my sis, we were just kids. We went alone this time- so no one could stop us :P from having this fun.


Ooru vandhu serndhachu…Elaarum tired’a irupeenga. Inaku summa rest edunga. Naan inga sondha karavanga kooda aratai adikren. Apdiye tea kudipom appa ungala elaarayum introduce pani vekren. (Yaaru pa anga! Saraku elaam kedayadhu..enga oorla TASMAC kooda parka mudiyadhu- ambuttu nallavanga inga elarum! Pesama tea kudinga- fresh’a karandha paal vechu potadhu.)…..

Sari- elaarum saaptu paduthu thoongunga. Nalaku veliya ooru suthalaam…andha vhithi veetuku kootitu poren :D Aadu maadu elaam introduce pani vekren..esply- baggy! Elaarum nalla thoongunga – sweet dreams!! :D

Good morning…elaarum ezhundhiringa.. Fresh milk’la tea coffe ready! :D

Saaptu oora suthi parkalaam….

First to chithi’s place.

Third day we went to our aunt’s house where I am going to meet a child hood friend- kavitha. She is very special for- she is another distant relatives daughter but since schooling was better here – from her childhood she is brought up here. She is just a few years elader than me & my but acts very responsible & many a times she would behave like she is way too elder than us – in taking care of the 2 of us & being very loving. Genuine LOVE! And we love her very much. I remember the last time I saw her- I carried my Baby-Barbie doll & we 3 used to sit together& give my doll a gentle bath. She remembers all that & this time she asked me if I have brought the dollie with me. All the 3 of us were very happy- immensely happy to see eachother after so many years! And guess what she gave a very tight hug & too many kisses ! :D Chithi veetla elarumey adorably sweet- AvangaLa yaarum kova patey parthadhu ila..epavum they keep a smiling face – avanga family memberskula kooda erichalavo- kova patto parthadhu ila. And that is one reason I love visiting them – because u can smell love,feel love, hear love, see love, LIVE the true love & affection. Kavi romba close- but naanga paarthu pala varudangal agudhu. Inaku dhaan meet pana porom. Kavitha kooda naanga oru murai thaniya vayaluku poitom. Appo oru periya koothey nadandhuduchu..but naanga veetla vandhu yartayum solala! Anaal indha vaati with picture adhu pathi elartayum sonnom @home. Ungaluku andha edam varapo solren.

Uyir pozhacha route.


The childhood buddy- kavitha and my cousin would will take us to the fields this time.

What u see here is the first place we went- the very first picture. And the path we took is here. An amazing route…and here is what happened that day! We were just 3 young girls walking in this path – and we were having a lovely chat walking through this greens.

And suddenly we three heard something very unusal – more like a stampede . And by the time we could understand what it was- kavi grabbed both of our hands. And she pulled us both into the greens- it all happened so very quick we could hardly understand what was going on & why she was pulling us inside the bushes. And BAAAAM – What we witnessed was really shocking. Moments before we got out of this narrow pathway into the buses in the side – there we say a really FAST RUNNING MAD BULL….it was running too very fast that we could feel its speed when it just crossed. And there we were 3 of lying on our backs. Come on- she saved us! We three had bruises – but very mild compared to what could have happened had we not fallen off the path. I still remember the feeling… we were so amused & happy that we survived that! And this time when we told this to kavi- she was very surprised that we remembered it even now.(Who wouldn’t! :P ) Indha narrow path’la maadu mutti sethuruka vendiyadhu :P Andha edatha maracka mudiyuma!!



And the second pic – with the greens is nothing but actually a path we took.

When my cousin said- “Get down here & come so I shall show you the real beauty of village! And I was like..”Haahaaa good joke! :D now tell me which is the way to get down & go to reach where you are gonna take me.”

He started laughing out loud..and I was thinking This gotto be a joke ! I can take up the fear factor challenge instead! The path is so very steep & pretty high from the ground too… No way he is going to get down this himself & jumping off- not an OPTION definitely.! Then he told me “ Seriously this is the way we must take if you want to see some beautiful places. Or else we could go back to the FLAT land like the lazy queens!- where you can’t see anything lovely as what am planning to show you.:P “

I really wanted to see the places that I had once seen- been to & played a lot. I wonder how I got there those times. I asked my cousin “How did we go there those days..i remember having taken a smooth walk only!”

He said “ We used to carry you or throw you down :P – you were little girls then..”

Me “ LOL :P – cha! I hate growing up! OK I follow! “

And then he climbed/walked or I wonder how- got down. And I too made a safe TOUCH DOWN :P

Then we went to the places that you are able to see now… Had I not taken that BRAVE decision to climb/slide/I really don’t know how I made it down that path….i would not have this tour organized :P to take you-my lovely friends to get to see this! SO its worth the TRY! And so did I capture the super cool guest – fields- the very first pic which I love a lot! And the rest too..the flowers especially…The violet is the brinjal flower.


All the greens are in chithi’s fields…Cousin offered to take me to more places- but trust me , I was really very tired after walking through the not very smooth path.And I still have too many pictures to share – but only that not patient enough to wait & load those so many! The best’s are here for you to see!

And I fogot! Do u see the picture that has an unusual guest- That was captured by the great photographer –me :P after all those chasing & crouch walking & FINALLY CLICKING. It is a dragon fly- we have all seen a grey/blue family dragon fly. But I have never seen one in this colour- pretty odd & freaky isn’t it? That’s why I wanted to click this & let you too witness this miracle! I wonder why it has that colour- actually there were couple of them in this colour. Only one was a little bit co-operative. Other one was too photo-shy. ONE STRANGE GUEST WE SAW THERE. Now you too have seen one RED DRAGON FLY-ignore if you have seen one already.

Later on another day we visited the temples @ kumbakonam,the famous pond & all the other pictures are here..

Enna elaarum inum sleeping’a? Ippo Naama kumbakonam vandhachu :P nenega leaam thoongitu irundhapovey – alli poduley elarayum buskula..:p soli ethiyachu! :P

hee hee

Tea- break fast elaam vazhila edhavadhu hotel’la saptudlaam ;)

Kumbakonam temples- world famous- soliya theriyanum ungaluku…Apdiye elaarum parunga..first 3 pics thavira elaa temple’um kumbakonam temple.

Myself in the fields - Varappu- paddyfieldprincess@Paddyfields-Dragonfly















BAGGY! - The most friendly COW - me taming the cow

And most importantly- the picture of baggy !!:P

The picture that has the pretty cow! I love that cow. She is one of the most friendly cow.

I remember the last time I had been there with amma appa… she was carrying.And all the time I was there in the place where baggy would be resting. She was so lovely – And most of all she loves me shcrubbing her behind the ears & near the horns. And you copuld see one picture while I was doing the same this time. Probably one place where the poor animal cannot give itself a scrub. But I just loved sitting next to the resting TO_BE_MOMMY ! :D

Only on hearing our car start did I realize I had to make a move.

This time when I went I asked if we could go see her & chithi said she has a baby girl :P delivered some time back. I really was shocked when I heard this, because does cows carry calf for so many years??! :O And then chithi understood what was running in my brain & joked – “No no…. That one you are thinking about is there- almost a cow :P no more a calf. This is her second calf! “

And I went “ PHEW!! I was shocked….Thank goodness.”

And everyone in the room burst out laughing. When we went there to baggy’s shed – the milk man had come to milk the cow. And Do u see that pic?

Paal kara annan karakra time baggy’a parka vandhrukom… :) Anna permission’oda oru click panitu varen. Neenga elaam bayapadadheenga- baggy is very friendly. Adhuku kombu kita thadavinaal- romba pidikum..Fore head- kombu, kaadhu kitta…. Inga leaam tame panalaam. She likes it. Bayandha goli elaam orama irunga. Naan poi veladren :P See the pic? ;)

Ok namakelaam fresh’a paal ready :P Ippo time for the kutty to drink…elarum odhungunga…kutty(olipichaan- is her nick name there!) kudikatum. :)

Ipovey kanna katudhu….

Neengalaam pavam..so odhoda vitudren :D

Matravai neril – if u insist in knowing more.. will share it with you later.


Things that I observed & makes me rethink –

# Only the city people blame the time & keep changing worse than chameleons. Often they forget how to DRESS- or should I say DRESS!

# Those in the villages are still the same- with genuine love, those millions of smiles that I got to see- from know&unknown people…DAMN! Am sure gonna miss that. Here we simply hesitate to smile-BACK also. It would be so disgusting sometimes :P like they were never taught to smile or even know how to!

# And the bus culture- awesome. One of the serious MARUTHAM’S PRINCIPLE is not to be seated in a bus while the elders are standing. I donno if the people follow this..but whenever I gotup to stand offering my seat to an elder person. There was soon someone to offer me a seat.This happened very often in the journey – and the men here follow strictly that – no man keep shimself seated while a women is standing. That was genuinely very GENTLE & HUMANE! While we have romeo’s & JUNKS – who hardly knows to share the little space during crowded hours(or should I say always!)

# The gentle smile which they always carry.

#The super friendly –humane drivers who half the time shares the load of the conductor. He doesn’t rely on the vizzle to start or stop the bus. He takes the pain in turning & looking at the foot board & makes sure everyone has got down & during crowded hours – he asks if everyone has got down.

# Not to forget the humane conductors – they help out old people – children & sometimes women who have too many luggages while getting in & out – very safely. While out city drivers-conductors impress us all with their excellent stinking vocabulary like the “ SOmaari, Kasmaalam, Saavu graaki, Paradhesi, …..” che ! why do get there on a lovely post like this…These guys stand no where when compared to those GEMS!

#Overtaking is not very common there – one is that they have a good road that doesn’t let them do this, and too they seem to know HASTE MAKES WASTE!

#Indian villages are still the same- genuine-innoscent people- Unconditional love-Culture-Tradition-Gentle way of speaking- …oooooooo too many to list out. I wish we all keep this in mind & try to learn from them- what we have forgotten being far away from the backbone – and almost for having forgotten HOW TO LIVE!

#Calling this modernization – we have forgotten and are now getting back to barbarian times- with the mini skirts – sleeveless dress, and not implacable to girls alone – I see these days that guys have lost minds and are wearing sleeveless baniyans,ara kaal trwoser :P – 3/4ths which are smaller than that – YUKKS!, and I dnt want to list many here….But mind your dressing- we dnt want to show the future “ See that- that’s salwar/sarree, veshti,shirt…that once humans used to wear! It will stink for sure! We dnt want to take a blame like that do we>??

Celebrating TRUE INDIA- INDIAN VILLAGES,

Marutham.

PS: After a very long time Photographer Marutham got time & things to click on! :D

Sari – elaarukum velai neraya irukum…Paadhi peru padika kooda try paniruka mataanga :P Try pani padhiyavadhu padichavanga- regret paniruka matanga…Muzhusa padichavanga ineram oru smile panirupeenga! :) In any case tour epdi irundhuchunu katayum thittitu ponga comments section’la. :)

LOVE YOU ALL LOADS>…I will soon get back to reply to you all..untill then..NANDRI-VANAKKAM-ADIOS!